I am burning the letters of days gone by,

some people are determined to be undetermined. how can they live such a life,?

that is what i would like to know.

independence is great, and though i've been given some i feel as if i need more.

everything is different after a while. it all changes eventually. perhaps that's good in some cases. yeah, it could be. or it could be not so good. hmm if i'm not making much sense now i apologize.

have you ever felt like you're just not good enough for some people? like no matter what you do it will never be accepted by them? i spent too much time trying to become who they wanted me to be, too much time trying to show them who i was. and too much time worrying about my every move because i didn't feel supported. i'm done with that. i'm being myself...i'm not looking for acceptance in any way. sure, that would be awesome but we don't always get it. i can't apologize for trying to do what's right.

currently listening to: we did this to myself by the apathy eulogy

so this is who i am. i'm someone who is kind, and has a lot of dreams. i believe there's good in everyone. sometimes i say things at the wrong time and place. i'm straightforward. i don't hold grudges. i'm spiritual. i'm not caught up in drama. not worth it. i like nature. i love philosophy. i do want children. i'm not afraid of risky things, it enthralls me. like skydiving, i'd like to try that. i like to have fun. weird things amaze me. the smallest things matter truly. i like conversations. laughter is something i hold dear to my heart. everything falls into place eventually, it's my motto. acoustic music is my favorite music, though i like every kind. i find comfort in aimlessly driving.

so that's me. hate me/love me. choose. i can't make the decision for you. and i can't guarantee i'll care which you choose. i'd recomment loving me :) because i'm not who you think i am and i have a lot of love to give!

windows and rooms that i'm passing through, probably one of my most important posts.

On this summer night, we'll forget everything and everyone. We'll look at the sky like we're one of the stars. And even when our world is crashing down around us, we'll have each other.

I'm listening to country music. It has the ability to make me cry. Sometimes God sends me messages in the most wonderful, touching ways. I'll be looking for an answer, and there it will be right in front of my face. Wow. I don't even have to search. I'm so lucky to know Him.

I am having problems with where I live. But... Where we live is temporary. This is just a stop to where I'm going. But I'm not afraid because I know...this is my temporary home. And I have God. So I can't fear. Nothing anyone can say or do can take your joy if you don't let it. This place is here for lessons. Here for a place to stay. But it doesn't compare to where we will be after this life.

I'm looking for my place in this world. I've learned to just be happy, and not to let life slip away from me. I'm sure there were plenty of moments I felt sad that I could've been feeling happy. I believe we can't be happy all the time. We need those low moments too. I'm learning to look past the negativity.

I love those people who make you generally smile. Relationships are hard to keep up with. But worth it. Every person I know has different needs and personalities, so it is frustrating at times. I love the people I choose to be surrounded by though. I really do.

I want someone to say this to me: "It doesn't matter what you've done, I still love you. It doesn't matter where you've been, you can still come home." UNCONDITIONAL love is the kind of love I'm trying to give away.

This world is beautiful. Astonishing. I get this feeling of feeling INFINITE and the world is mine. I find the true meaning of life. Yes, life is 10% of what happens to you, and 90% of how you deal with it.

challenges are what make life interesting;

overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.

I've faced so many things, and I've gotten through. I've grown. I never dreamed of a lot of things I've faced. I'm moving on. God, please take everything away that can harm me. Let it only accelerate me. I don't want to have my years pass by and know that I haven't been happy. I'm changing everything. I'm going to live this life with ease.

everybody needs inspiration, beautiful melody when the nights are long.

I'm coming to many realizations. Mainly just about life. I've learned so much the past few months, and grown in so many ways. There is no guarantee that life is easy. But there is a guarantee that we can always make it better by just having hope. When the waves are flooding the shore and I can't find my way home, that's when the lessons I need are learned. That's when the clouds become clearer, and I become more thankful for that moment. I finally realize why people go through pain. I have no doubts anymore. How amazing it is to not mourn for the past and just live in the moment. Just feel. Just to look to the future in a way I can hope for, it's all worth it. I've reached this point in my life where things are starting to make sense. I can't tell you how thankful I am for this.

I am really mesmerized by the ocean. It's a fascination. Maybe close to an obsession.

i love this.

wherever you are in this world, come back to me,

Recently I've found myself thinking so deeply about everything. I used to always over-analyze everything.
This time, though, I'm not doing that. I'm just trying to live. And just feel.
Don't you think it's significant, the impact that people have on our lives? It's an impact that can last forever. The smallest, most inconsequential things that seem to mean nothing at the time could make a world of difference.
I love that.
Even though sometimes it's sad, sometimes it's hard to come by, I love those moments.

If you asked me right this moment..."How do you feel?" I wouldn't be able to answer your question. I'm not sure. This most likely will make no sense, but sometimes I wonder why or how sadness brings a sense of happiness. Sort of an oxymoron. It does though. And I'm not sure why I feel this. Sometimes it's difficult to explain anything at all in my world. I've come to the conclusion that everything has an explanation, but not everyone is willing to search for that answer. And not everyone is capable of seeing it. I myself have some things to get by soon, and some things are changing for the better. This I'm sure of.

Don't forget to remember me.

love, always.