Stuff.

I've actually posted a couple times today, and it makes me pretty happy.
Scroll down & read the one's you haven't for me! :)
I probably won't post again for a few days, so I'll make up for some lost time today. haha.

I seriously love punk and acoustic bands. It's just another thing that makes me feel alive. The bands that many people don't know about, those usually are the ones that are best.

Currently listening to: Break by Three Days Grace.

I don't like how I'm feeling right now.

<-- i edited this. I really like it. <-- and this.

I've been seeing art in almost everything lately.

Things I want to do right at this moment:
-Get my license
-Find a job
-Go skydiving
-Go for a walk (it's too dark out)
-Hear good music instead of this crap that's playing.

Goodnight <3
Lovelovelove
-C


P.S. I love you chook!!!!

Beautiful Disaster.

I've found the little things to mean the most. I've found unwanted thoughts come at the most unappropriate or desperate times.
But, I do know...love happens when you're least expecting it. It comes like a tornando picking your feet off the ground.

Everything I wanted didn't seem to come so quickly

We trampled on what's left and still we disagree

As if I tried to make my life crumble,

As if I didn't pick myself when I would stumble.

I saw you in that picture frame,

With your head bowed with shame.
Why did you do this?

How do you exist?

Everything in my head says,

really, I'm alive

But my heart doesn't feel

what you would soon contrive.

Everything is so beautiful in the world of hatred. You may see distruction and evil in what's wrong with our society. But if you look close enough, you might see the beauty in what's not.

A beautiful disaster.

And maybe that's what my life is exactly. I don't have everything figured out yet. I don't understand a lot of things.

A lot of things happen to me that I'm not neccessarily okay with. But even though it's all so disasterous, it's still beautiful just because it's my life.

I'm lost in the words I find so inevitable.

A leopard's spots.

Not everyone realizes the meaning of life. I really feel bad for them. Living their life worrying and stressing. If you take a step back and look at everything, you'll truly see... everything really is OKAY. I myself am can be like that sometimes. Everyone can.

I have an issue. Many actually. I care about every person to the fullest extent when I get to know them. I know what you're thinking. "Corbin, how could that be an issue?"
Let me tell you, it actually creates heartbreak. Not all the time. When I really love someone, I really love them. I would do anything to see them smile. And then when they hurt you, like most people end up doing, your world crashes down.
Wouldn't it be so much easier to be detached and not have any expectations for people? Then they really couldn't let you down.

I need to work on that. Although, I'm not going to stop caring for anyone. You can't change a leopard's spots. I just need to work on my fears of people hurting me and letting me down. Obviously there's a reason I feel this way. Maybe past experiences.

One thing I know...I'm NOT going to be that girl who has trust issues. I can't. And I won't.
Like I've said before...
I won't spend my life jaded.

Scroll down & read my other post from today :) Yes, I changed my layout!!


Oh, don't let me walk away from the love I've never felt.
For everything you say somehow makes my heart melt.

How I could live for the rainy days when everything just seems to go your way.

Just who we are.

I can see clearly, everything lingering from footsteps where you once stood.
Like a cave you hid in for too long. I was calling your precious name out fromon top of a mountain. Still you stood as still as the fall breeze around us.
Here I am, living undefeated. Do you expect me to pick up the rose you trampled on? It's now dirt.
Beauty surrounded my heart and filled it with hope, although...I wasn't quite sure where it was all coming from. From a distance perhaps. Or maybe it was waiting for me to discover, hopelessly wandering looking for a hand to grab it.
Or it may just be my own mind longing for the forbidden heart to care.

No one else cares to dream.
No one goes to sleep with the country stars in mind.

Of course, just when we think we've reached our breaking point, the rain begins to shower down upon us, disregarding our tender lips.
And just when we think we've conquered the world a new place, maybe majestic, maybe infinite, begins to form.

We might have to defeat an army, go through a forest,or emerge from an ocean to truly realize...

Just who we are.

I love you all.
Peace. Love. & God.

-C

Another Sunday.

It's been a long time since I've posted anything on here.
That makes me sad.

Another Sunday. I'm not a huge fan of Sunday's. Better than Monday's though.
This weekend was SO refreshing for me. I did everything I would have wanted to. Not that it was a super exciting two days. No. It was just right.

I feel for once, so ready, so accomplished. I can't believe after so long I feel a bit relaxed and prepared. Just for everything.

I've been thinking about a lot. Things that a lot of people never think about. Just about the world, about life. Things that are too deep for me to explain also. Seriously, I am just really thankful for my life. I have so many up's and down's. Sometimes it feels like there's more down's than up's. But you know what?
IT'S OKAY.
Because everything I've gone through makes me the person I am today. And I really am proud of who I've become.

My friend told me something the other day. She said, "Corbin, you're the most honest person I've ever met. You never give into peer pressure."
You know how awesome it is hearing that?
Although I wanted, "thank you so much!" to come out, I ended up saying "Well, I try." It made me happy hearing that. You know, someone actually acknowledging my strengths and something I work so hard on being.

I really do try to be an honest, true person. I try letting everyone know that I will always be there for them. Everyone needs someone like that.
I told a different friend "if you ever need anything, anytime, anywhere, don't hesitate to ask me. I'll always to a true friend to you."
You know what she said? "Thanks corbin, that means so much. It made my day."
That is just so awesome to hear.

This song below, I did not write. It's a linkin park song & it's about struggles & God & I'd love for you to read it. I love it. It's really relatable.

So much stress keeps running through my mind now
I fell into a mess that I wish that I could climb out
I guess I'll hide it so nobody will find out that way
Everyone thinks that everything is fine now
at home things are messed up with mom and dad
and at school all my friends stab me in the back
no one is real anymore
I hate the way they act
there is so many things that I wish I had
so God if you're there do you understand?
don't you care about anything that's happening?
it's not fair to put me through all this junk again
you see that I'm scared so help me if you can
so please speak loud and clear cuz I'm listening
I need to know that you're real cuz I'm struggling
you need to show that you're here cuz I'm stumbling
show me that you care and this is why I'm saying this

It goes on to talk about how he gave his life to God.

I love you all.
lovelovelove
-C