Who says I can't be free?

I'm listening to "who says" by John Mayer on repeat...there's something about it that relaxes me.
This is a part of it:
"Who says I can’t get stoned?
Turn off the lights and the telephone
Me and my house alone
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Who says I can’t be free?
From all of the things that I used to be
Re-write my history
Who says I can’t be free?
It’s been a long night in New York City
It’s been a long night in Baton Rouge
I don’t remember you looking any better
But then again I don’t remember you."

This kind of inspires me. Who says I can't wake up tomorrow and be a completely different person? Re-write this story called life. Do everything I want to. Be who I want to be.

I'm not the type of person who likes to alone often. I wish right now that I had someone to keep me company. Someone my age at least. But you know, maybe it's okay. Maybe I can take some time to think about things...

And again, I replay this song.

I am feeling isolated. Sometimes it's like, what am I doing wrong in life?
You know...?



I love people in general, but sometimes I can't stand being around the people I'm surrounded by. Maybe it's me, I don't know. I try seeing good in everyone, but sometimes it's so so deep down that it takes a special person to be able to see. I want to be that person, I do.

I'm not a serious person most of the time. I mean, I can be but I am usually laughing and joking. It just makes life better to me. It makes me smile :)

I don't know what I want. It's that simple.

everyday unfolding a new page..

-I haven't been able to say I trust more than a couple of people in too long.
People in my life lately have been very mean to me. Not everyone, but just in general. People making up things about me, just cruel attitudes and things like that. I'm not into being mean to others. I can be, though, if you hurt me. I'm trying to work on that. That is one of my downfalls. I need to take the road less traveled by.

Life. As we know it. Is falling down right before our eyes.
I find humor in almost every situation, which I think is a good thing--a form of optimism :)

You know, I really believe distances are just opportunities to get closer.

Time heals pain. For the most part. I've learned that... and even though people are fighting against me, they won't hold me down. I haven't come all this way just to be taken back to Day 1. You don't know how strong you are until you are told you're weak and your true strength is put to the test. I guess I do feel weak sometimes, and you know...maybe I am? I'm not quite sure. All I know is that God is fighting my battles one by one, and someday things will be better. You can't have a rainbow without a little rain.



Every aspect of human civilization deals with: realizations.disappointments.laughter.tears.
and every moment, no less significant.