everything seems to fall into place somehow,

These are some of my favorite pictures I have on my computer, and they really inspire me. So I put this together and set it as my background. These things are the things I try to base my life off of, and are constant reminders of who I am and how I want to live my life.

This week has been sort of hazy, if that makes any sense. I've been searching for answers, and sometimes they aren't always there. Or always right in front of my face. But sometimes we have to look closely to see closure and for the things we need. They can't always be obvious and right in front of your face, it defeats the purpose of life. Challenges are what make life meaningful.

Understood?

I thought I could drive around for hours just listening to music and thinking. But today I couldn't. It was almost too much. Like I just wanted to avoid the empty thoughts that come my way when I drive. I guess it's because it's the only time I have that's actually silent. And that I have complete control of. Maybe that's why I like it. I'm a control freak to a certain extent...and perhaps that feeling comforts me in a sense. But why is it the saddest thoughts seem to come at that time?

I've come to the conclusion that life is good no matter what. And no one could ever talk me out of believing that. Look down upon me, and I'll keep looking up. Try to stomp over me and I'll run faster than you've ever seen me run. Your cruelness no longer works on me, it accelerates me.

:)

My favorite words: INSPIRE. INFINITE. THRILL. AMAZE. HOPE.

those trulyyyy make me feel the way i'd like to feel. yes.

-i hope you find yourself in my arms

Those vacant parking lots, they touch the ocean view.

Life is this amazing thing that no one can explain in words... sometimes I get lost in that beauty.

The worry, the strain, it's not worth it, it's wasteful. When we could be happy. There's no point in contemplating too much about something when everything always will be okay. In some way. It will.

Our options and possibilities are endless.

Wherever I go in this life, whatever I may accomplish, I just want to sparkle. I want everything to shine around me.

Currently listening to: Designer skyline, Owl City

I love ocean coasts, & small but real and meaningful smiles. I love the sky. And how it can change so much, and still be just as beautiful. I love seeing the big picture. I love the saying "the end does not justify the means". I guess you could interpret in whatever way you'd like. I see it as, you can get to the point you want to be at, no matter how you got there or whatever got in your way. Our past doesn't determine our future.

I love airports.

I love storms.

I love pictures.

I love windows.

I love waves.

I love real laughter,

where you can't stop even if you try.

I love balconies.

I love surprises.

I love art galleries.

I love lists.

I love the word infinite.

I love crying,

not the sadness of why i'm crying,

but the feeling of letting go.

Road trip? I would love to have you as of now. Seeing the scenery would make me melt right away. Travel calls my name. I'll make a hobbie of it someday.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm dreaming, or in a state of a daze. Like I'm not even there. Like I'm just sort of floating along, not really in control of my movements. And I'm just living, so abruptly. Just feeling. Just giving and receiving the same contentment. A state of nirvana..

love is nothing, yet everything.

this is where we begin to see the light,

I don't know what to do with myself. So I guess I'll blog.

Things I want to do this week:
-listen to music, think and do nothing else for an hour straight
-watch an old movie (by old i mean 80's)
-write a song because i haven't in far too long
-hang out with someone and just talk about things i need to get out there
-drive around aimlessly

so simple. i'm in the kind of mood where i just want a different kind of week. i'm taking things a day, a week at a time. small steps.

I've had strange revelations. And nothing short of that. I'm not afraid. I'm intrigued. Happy. Stunned. Saddened. How can I get passed this?

I am burning the letters of days gone by,

some people are determined to be undetermined. how can they live such a life,?

that is what i would like to know.

independence is great, and though i've been given some i feel as if i need more.

everything is different after a while. it all changes eventually. perhaps that's good in some cases. yeah, it could be. or it could be not so good. hmm if i'm not making much sense now i apologize.

have you ever felt like you're just not good enough for some people? like no matter what you do it will never be accepted by them? i spent too much time trying to become who they wanted me to be, too much time trying to show them who i was. and too much time worrying about my every move because i didn't feel supported. i'm done with that. i'm being myself...i'm not looking for acceptance in any way. sure, that would be awesome but we don't always get it. i can't apologize for trying to do what's right.

currently listening to: we did this to myself by the apathy eulogy

so this is who i am. i'm someone who is kind, and has a lot of dreams. i believe there's good in everyone. sometimes i say things at the wrong time and place. i'm straightforward. i don't hold grudges. i'm spiritual. i'm not caught up in drama. not worth it. i like nature. i love philosophy. i do want children. i'm not afraid of risky things, it enthralls me. like skydiving, i'd like to try that. i like to have fun. weird things amaze me. the smallest things matter truly. i like conversations. laughter is something i hold dear to my heart. everything falls into place eventually, it's my motto. acoustic music is my favorite music, though i like every kind. i find comfort in aimlessly driving.

so that's me. hate me/love me. choose. i can't make the decision for you. and i can't guarantee i'll care which you choose. i'd recomment loving me :) because i'm not who you think i am and i have a lot of love to give!

windows and rooms that i'm passing through, probably one of my most important posts.

On this summer night, we'll forget everything and everyone. We'll look at the sky like we're one of the stars. And even when our world is crashing down around us, we'll have each other.

I'm listening to country music. It has the ability to make me cry. Sometimes God sends me messages in the most wonderful, touching ways. I'll be looking for an answer, and there it will be right in front of my face. Wow. I don't even have to search. I'm so lucky to know Him.

I am having problems with where I live. But... Where we live is temporary. This is just a stop to where I'm going. But I'm not afraid because I know...this is my temporary home. And I have God. So I can't fear. Nothing anyone can say or do can take your joy if you don't let it. This place is here for lessons. Here for a place to stay. But it doesn't compare to where we will be after this life.

I'm looking for my place in this world. I've learned to just be happy, and not to let life slip away from me. I'm sure there were plenty of moments I felt sad that I could've been feeling happy. I believe we can't be happy all the time. We need those low moments too. I'm learning to look past the negativity.

I love those people who make you generally smile. Relationships are hard to keep up with. But worth it. Every person I know has different needs and personalities, so it is frustrating at times. I love the people I choose to be surrounded by though. I really do.

I want someone to say this to me: "It doesn't matter what you've done, I still love you. It doesn't matter where you've been, you can still come home." UNCONDITIONAL love is the kind of love I'm trying to give away.

This world is beautiful. Astonishing. I get this feeling of feeling INFINITE and the world is mine. I find the true meaning of life. Yes, life is 10% of what happens to you, and 90% of how you deal with it.

challenges are what make life interesting;

overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.

I've faced so many things, and I've gotten through. I've grown. I never dreamed of a lot of things I've faced. I'm moving on. God, please take everything away that can harm me. Let it only accelerate me. I don't want to have my years pass by and know that I haven't been happy. I'm changing everything. I'm going to live this life with ease.

everybody needs inspiration, beautiful melody when the nights are long.

I'm coming to many realizations. Mainly just about life. I've learned so much the past few months, and grown in so many ways. There is no guarantee that life is easy. But there is a guarantee that we can always make it better by just having hope. When the waves are flooding the shore and I can't find my way home, that's when the lessons I need are learned. That's when the clouds become clearer, and I become more thankful for that moment. I finally realize why people go through pain. I have no doubts anymore. How amazing it is to not mourn for the past and just live in the moment. Just feel. Just to look to the future in a way I can hope for, it's all worth it. I've reached this point in my life where things are starting to make sense. I can't tell you how thankful I am for this.

I am really mesmerized by the ocean. It's a fascination. Maybe close to an obsession.

i love this.

wherever you are in this world, come back to me,

Recently I've found myself thinking so deeply about everything. I used to always over-analyze everything.
This time, though, I'm not doing that. I'm just trying to live. And just feel.
Don't you think it's significant, the impact that people have on our lives? It's an impact that can last forever. The smallest, most inconsequential things that seem to mean nothing at the time could make a world of difference.
I love that.
Even though sometimes it's sad, sometimes it's hard to come by, I love those moments.

If you asked me right this moment..."How do you feel?" I wouldn't be able to answer your question. I'm not sure. This most likely will make no sense, but sometimes I wonder why or how sadness brings a sense of happiness. Sort of an oxymoron. It does though. And I'm not sure why I feel this. Sometimes it's difficult to explain anything at all in my world. I've come to the conclusion that everything has an explanation, but not everyone is willing to search for that answer. And not everyone is capable of seeing it. I myself have some things to get by soon, and some things are changing for the better. This I'm sure of.

Don't forget to remember me.

love, always.

all you have to do is stop thinking about things, let things happen.

I'm a fan of anything beautiful, including photography and art. Including this world, including the beautiful people our world holds. I believe there's more to life than what we know now.

I am glad last week has ended, and a new one is about to start. Last week was really hard for me. I was going through a lot of emotions and I can't say I had a smile through it all. Which is fine. I don't think anyone should FORCE themselves to be happy all the time. Sometimes we just have to accept how we're feeling and deal with the emotions we have at that time. Then later, we can work on how to fix it. Then we can be happy again!

I want to give motivational speeches in this lifetime. Much later in my life, obviously. I love helping people through things, I believe inspiration is all we need sometimes. I will do this.

I don't know how to take people drifting away from me. I get attached to people I love too much. Is it possible to care too much? Sometimes I think it is. I can't just watch them getting further away from me. Don't say we are going to be friends forever and tell me how much you care about me if you're actions are going to show otherwise. Seriously, actions speak louder than words. Always.

Lately I've been so oddly reserved. That's so not me. It sort of scares me. Change doesn't scare me, the fact that I'm becoming someone new does. I would love for some of the things in my life and some things about myself to change (who wouldn't?), but when I'm starting to become a different person that I don't want to be...that's a problem with me. Maybe it's just a phase of my life I have to get by...

when i lose you,

i lose every part of me

the truth of our being will shine through

and you'll see

i'm nothing without you.

just to close my eyes and breathe in the air. how amazing. to know god has everything planned out for me, to know he is changing the negative aspects of my life, and showing me all of the positive. i just have to believe that and focus on that. and my life is going to get back on track.

suddenly i understand everything i couldn't comprehend,

Maybe I do expect too much out of people. You're going to see a lot of random sentences/thoughts in this post. My life has been turning in circles this week, and I'm just ready for it to end. Let me just say: I love miraculous people who make our world better. The smallest things make the biggest difference in my eyes. I really want a rainy day. You don't see that in winter like you do in spring. I care a lot about the people in my life. I get attached to people easily. I'm not sure why. I do though. I find myself missing my friends when I'm not with them lately. If you knew how I am, you'd find that surprising because as much as I love being with people, I get annoyed with them after awhile. But I'm thankful to have found the amazing people who I could spend every moment with and never get annoyed or bored. I want someone who knows what I'm talking about even when I don't. I want people who will wipe my tears away. I want someone who thinks like I do, and who isn't involved in the drama that I try not to face. I really need to know these kind of people exist. I find comfort in feeling protected and like I am able to take care of people, and be taken care of.
Stability in my life right now would be great.



You know what feels good telling someone?
"Im so proud of you."
I told someone that yesterday, and I was so glad I did, because after they said "thank you so much. it's been so long since someone has told me that." And that made me so happy, yet so sad. Happy because I wanted to be that person to make them feel better. But sad because everyone deserves to hear that. Especially the people who try to do the right thing so much. And who are the kind of people who make you proud to know them.

Michigan, you suck. I've been searching for the stars and they're just shy of coming out for Corbin to see.

As tough as it's been lately, I'll admit things are getting better. I sometimes wonder if it's better for myself to think about my problems in hope of my mind sorting them out, or if it's better to just not think about it and move passed. I really don't know. Bewilderment to its finest.

I have a lot of deep thoughts, my over-analyzing characteristics come out sometimes. I try to keep my philosophies about life to myself, because it just feels like no one sees the world like I do. And they don't. Because when I attempt to describe the complexity and completely astonishing life, no one really gets it. Or maybe I don't get it. Either way, we see things differently.


I've realized a lot lately, I'm growing in a lot of ways. I make mistakes daily. But I'm learning so much and getting to be the person I want to be overall. Still so much to go through and to learn. The last two days I've been too sad so tomorrow I'm going to decide to be happy.

...

i had a dream last night that i killed myself. i was even telling myself in my dream how much i loved life. i held a gun up to my head at one point.

this scares me.

no, im not really suicidal.

i looked up a dream interpretation and it said i'm feeling anger toward something i can't fix, helplessness, intense emotions.

oh lord.

take the time to let it go, step away and watch me grow.

i won't give up on my own happiness. i won't forget what i can be and how i can view life.

i really went to bed last night wanting to go on with my day the following day. i woke up happy and excited for the new things i knew i was going to experience. i thought it was good change, i figured everything would fall into place, just like it always does eventually.

i realized i was wrong as the day went on.

it seemed like everywhere i looked there were people trying to bring me down. constant stresses and problems that i couldn't take anymore. i cried a few times this day. i'm not the type to get into these moods and let these kind of things affect me. at all. but i can't promise tears will never exist. i'm not strong enough all the time.

i was soo relieved when i saw someone, and they realized something was wrong with me; when they asked, i felt as if there was no way i could hold my tears in. so i let them out. there was so many people around, but i didn't care. people's opinions don't bother me. and crying isn't a sign of weakness. things happen. people started hugging me, telling me they would be there for me, telling me how much i meant to them, just making me feel so much better. sometimes that's all we need. even people i have never talked to gave me hugs and were concerned. sometimes i forget these kind of people exist. those one of a kind, truly amazing people that i need. gives me hope. i've always said every single person holds beauty. i believe that, and i love proving that fact.

i prayed for pure happiness and optimism, and i really got that. sure, sometimes i'm going to get upset. we can't be on top all the time, right? i'm so happy and lucky that i know God the way that i do. he has helped me so much and i can never express how much i am thankful and how much i want to live for Him.

things that are important to me:

faith

promises

friendship

love

knowledge

expression

compassion

don't let me go.

why do i constantly need this validation?

why do i experience emotions on such a deep level? as if i'm feeling every single aspect of the feeling...sometimes it's all too much.

sometimes i fight myself more than anything. i over-analyze everything, this i know. i'm working on it.

summer nights, drift back to me.

love. ♥

I'm driving, I'm flying, heading somewhere new.

My 100th post. Yay!

I'm convinced A Rocket To The Moon has the best music ever. I can listen to their songs (I have about 40 on my itunes) all day. It has this optimistic tone, and I love that. The lyrics are amazing in every single song. So kudos to you ARTTM. You have Corbin as a fan.

Ignorance is bliss. Hmm...I've been thinking about this expression/phrase, and I don't know if I neccessarily believe in that. Sometimes not knowing something is better than knowing it, is what that phrase is saying. Would you rather not know the truth and be happy or know the truth and be disappointed? I just want to be happy, simply. So I can't answer that. Ignorance is...well, ignorant. Ignorant people, unwilling to open their mind to others' views...well I say that is so shady. People who are judgmental and are only willing to stay in their own comfort zone...your life is going to stay in the same place forever. You'll never have opportunities. OPPORTUNITIES. One of my favorite words. Yes, I'm a nerd and have favorite words. Also, I love the word HOPE. Because within every situation, all we need is hope. I love the word HEARTBEAT, because it signifies so much. I love the word BREATHTAKING. Because I want to experience things that are that.

I love God. So much. I know He exists with everything in me, more than I know I'm sitting here. I have never known more. This life is so magnificent, none of this is possible without him. The fact that I'm elements and cells put together, but I'm breathing, living, thinking is enough to completely amaze me. We are not here for no reason. I feel it. I breathe in deep breaths and as it travels to my lungs, I know...it's not possible without God. Does any of this make sense? I hope so, in some kind of way.

Sometimes all I need is to close my eyes. I realize every day that I love life. I fall in love all over again with my dreams as I awake. I have to remember what I want out of life, and never give up on all of the huge things I wish to do. So many people want to do these things, and some sadly never get to follow their heart for various reasons. I WON'T be one of those people. I have way to much determination in my heart.

why am i excited to go to school tomorrow? why? i'm scaring myself.

Love, truly.

i need you here but you're always so far away,

I'm glad I'm figuring things out for myself. It brings me happiness to know that my future isn't defined by my past, but how I look at it. It's not about the circumstances I've been in. It's pretty breathtaking knowing I have that power.

I want to be rememberd in this life. I want to leave my mark on this earth.
I feel I'm growing closer to people and I like that. It comforts me somewhat.


I made a new "100 list". If you haven't read my "100 things that bring me happiness", scroll down :) These lists make me feel so inspired and just have gratitude.


100 things I want to do in life:
1. read under a tree
2. explore a forest
3. start a collection
4. cry in the pouring rain
5. climb a mountain
6. sleep for a whole day
7. camp without a tent
8. touch a waterfall
9. waterskii
10. change someone's life
11. have a deep conversation with a complete stranger
12. go on a safari
13. cover my walls with photos
14. collect street signs
15. save someones life
16. go to an art gallery
17. swing on a rope into a lake
18. find the most beautiful rocks and save them
19. learn new & interesting things
20. swim with a dolphin
21. send a message in a bottle
22. go on a road trip across america
23. overcome a fear
24. flatten coins on a railroad track
25. build something on my own
26. go on a sailboat
27. learn to play the acoustic guitar & piano
28. find my "purpose" in life
29. go water rafting on a face-paced river
30. talk on the phone for 24 hours
31. go on a vacation with me and my closest friend
32. understand the world
33. have a portrait of myself sketched
34. walk beside the ocean
35. fall in love when i'm old...all over again to the same person
36. walk on an ocean pier at night
37. drive 100 mph
38. teach a college class
39. ride at least 25 ferris wheels, and take a picture on each
40. stay in touch with my best friends
41. touch the clouds
42. ride on a jet airplane
43. bunji jump
44. take a bubble bath with overflowing bubbles
45. pick my own fruit
46. scubadive
47. visit every country i can
48. find that "fairy-tale endings" are possible
49. open someone's mind to a new idea
50. take amazing photography
51. write and publish a book
52. tell someone exactly how i feel
53. eat at an outdoor restaurant at night
54. build my dream house
55. go to concerts of my favorite bands
56. give my time to charities
57. doing random acts of kindness
58. break a bad habit (or two)
59. dance in random places
60. have a huge book collection
61. inspire someone
62. be a member in the audience of a TV show
63. try something i wouldn't normally try
64. surf
65. draw graffiti on something
66. learn to say hello in 50 languages
67. drive a racecar
68. go on a cruise
69. build a sailboat in a bottle
70. expand my vocabulary
71. Volunteer at a homeless shelter
72. make a documentary
73. watch the sun go down
74. take up yoga
75. spend a night with every family member
76. stand under the eiffel tower
77. ride something bigger than a horse
78. travel by train
79. go on a hike
80. having a well-known blog
81. visit disney world (again)
82. say "i love you" as much as i say "like"
83. fast for a day
84. go for daily morning jogs
85. fall asleep on the beach
86. put on a show on a public bus
87. stand on the top of a skyscraper
88. ride the tallest rollercoaster
89. stand up for something i strongly believe in
90. wipe someones tears away
91. find/keep people who value my happiness
92. climb to the top of a tree
93. make a mixtape of my favorite songs of all-time
94. write a long letter
95. tell someone they are truly beautiful
96. go to a nude beach
97. watch a solar eclipse
98 paint a picture
99. buy personalized gifts for my family & friends in a tropical giftshop
100. be generally happy

-love

the sun doesn't shine just quite like it did that day.

100 things that bring me happiness: (no particular order):

1. laughing until i cry
2. laying while looking at the stars
3. feeling sand between my toes
4. photography
5. seeing people generally happy
6. inside jokes
7. acoustic music
8. tree climbing
9. inspiration
10. good books that make me feel a variety of emotions
11. lakes and oceans
12. rollercoasters
13. the smell of a bonfire
14. people who show me how much they care
15. car rides at nighttime
16. forests
17. laying on the grass
18. outerspace, the sun, moon and STARS
19. blogging
20. buying new clothes
21. restaurants
22. writing
23. swings
24. being alone without feeling lonely
25. being with people i love
26. deep conversations
27. meditation
28. being myself without holding back
29. helping someone and receiving thanks
30. rain and rainy days
31. hoodies
32. walks
33. learning new things
34. home videos
35. jetskiing
36. warm blankets
37. log cabins
38. thunderstorms
39. hugs
40. making funny videos
41. pranks
42. divine chaos
43. optimism
44. random acts of kindness
45. comedy shows
46. scented candles
47. excitable people
48. hardwood floors
49. accomplishing goals
50. discovering new bands
51. waking up fully rested
52. finding time to daydream
53. getting lost in my thoughts
54. memories and making them
55. making a difference in peoples' lives
56. feeling infinite
57. the smell of spring
58. bookstores & art galleries
59. windy summer days
60. swimming at night
61. free samples
62. christmas lights
63. watching lightning bugs and fireflies
64. the smell of new magazines
65. salt water fish
66. classic disney movies
67. seeing elderly people in love
68. childhood memories of playing for hours
69. hayrides
70. watching the sky
71. kayaking
72. wave pools
73. meeting new people
74. making a fool of myself in public
75. anything vintage
76. smiling at strangers and having them smile back
77. when people give me space at exactly the time i need it
78. incense
79. ocean shells
80. unexpected letters/texts/calls
81. the feeling after i've cried a long, hard cry
82. colorful markers
83. getting someone to understand me
84. waking up fully rested
85. stained glass windows
86. hot showers
87. tan lines
88. giving and receiving advice
89. stretching
90. old photographs
91. good dreams you don't want to awake from
92. people-watching
93. movies that leave you thinking about things
94. really good food
95. random cooking experiments
96. sarcasm
97. complete silence
98. things being organized
99. not having a plan & taking life as it comes
100. going to sleep knowing you had a good day

i'm starting a new thing, where i'm doing "100" lists. right now, i'm working on "100 things I want to do in life". It's been so inspiring and reflective. i'll post that one once i'm finished.

current moods: happy, disappointed, and tired.

at least i have happy in there. :)

i am very thankful for the people i have in my life. they honestly make me smile. i'm working on saying "i love you" as much as i say "like". HA! it's important. i love when people tell me that. especially when I KNOW for a fact that it's true. i don't believe in saying that three letter phrase unless there's meaning behind it. there's such a difference between loving someone, and caring about someone. a world of difference.

lovelovelove.

there's a force in the universe that makes things happen.

I'm lost in words. In what could be. In what we could make of what we are.

I attempted to organize things again, and I quickly gave up. The weird thing is, I hate for things to be disorganized and messy and it drives me crazy, yet I can let it stay like this. Hmm.

I miss the summer. How I would love to be camping right now.

There is a whole universe out there, and our earth is set so gently there, us on this planet, living. Odd. It sort of makes life worth while. It sort of makes me know there's more out there than just this. There's more to life than our problems. We're not here for no reason. I feel this so strongly.

I'm ready for whatever life brings me. I'm taking life as it comes lately. I'm trying not to be so controlling. I'm focusing on not worrying about anything, and just living. Just focusing on the universe and world, and knowing life is what we make of it.

In fact, it's just amazing to know we escape death daily. So many opportunities to die, as morbid and pessimistic as that sounds. But I don't mean it that way. I simply mean, we should be so happy we're here, breathing in this air. Sure, we go through the stresses of the day and encounter more than sometimes we think we can handle, but we're here. Look how much we have accomplished. The memories I hold onto are stronger than anything. And no one can ever take them away.

I wouldn't be surprised if this doesn't make a lot of sense, my thoughts are perhaps meant for me. I see things in a "different", or more abstract way.

The only way to fall is down.

much love. ♥

how the stars reflect in your eyes shows me possibilities.

I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. Some of those we'll never know. But we can always dream. We're all so different in our own ways, and we see things in a different light. But we want the same basic things out of life. Love. Happiness. Fun. And that's pretty cool if you think about it.

So I guess we will never know exactly how we all relate. In some weird way, we'll never know ourselves as well as we can. Things change, people change. I'm seeing myself go in different directions and contradicting my actions and words at all points. Sometimes I wonder why I say the things I say, or why the thoughts in my mind wander there out of nowhere. I'm not afraid of my future. I'm excited to go through the journey of life. Honestly, it excites me to know that God has my life all planned out for me, and if I follow Him, it will go exactly how I want it to go. I have that control.

And that doesn't scare me either. I'm a control freak to a certain extent. I really like, or have to be in control of things sometimes. And if I'm not, it irritates me. Well, that's one of my weaknesses but I guess it shows I have confidence in myself.

I'm very happy to call myself a good person. I'm not conceited. I don't think I'm perfect and I don't think so very highly of myself. But I'm happy with myself. There's a million things I wish to change about myself at times, but I'm aware that I'm not perfect. And I'm trying to change things. I think I'm a good friend. I try to be. And It's too hard for me to say goodbye to the people I love. Sometimes all I want is to be alone. And other times, I just want to spend my time with people. Sometimes I want someone to ask me "what's wrong?" and have them not take "nothing" for an answer. As cliche as that may sound.

I feel like I'm writing a novel of a post, but I have a lot to say, partly because I haven't written in a couple or few days.

Studying for exams the past couple of days has made my brain hurt. I don't like it.

News: I got my license. Well, I will officially be getting it tomorrow, but I passed my road test. Yay.

Everything makes sense after a while. Thinking about the significance of life gives me chills, and frankly, it makes everything worth while...

Choose who you want to be. Choose where you want to go, who you want to love, and what you stand for. It will all be worth it in the end. <3


love, truly, always.

portraits of us fall down,

I'd give anything I have to see you smile.

Just to close my eyes, to feel the wind in my hair. To think about the oceans, the amazing places and people out there. The man who gives his last dollar gives me hope. It shows me there are good people out there. The person who puts a smile on someone's face even though they're crying inside...that person gives me hope. Photography and hugs, and raindrops...it all holds hope.

http://www.givesmehope.com/

Some people completely misread me. I'm not the person you think I am, I guarantee it. I'm a deep person, a simple person, yet so hard to completely figure it out. I care about people in general. I have huge dreams I will do anything to follow. I'm not dramatic, or caught up in the problems in life. I let it go. I'm carefree to a point. I try to not let things bother me. It's not worth it. And that's all been a progress in time. It took me a long time to figure out what I was missing was being happy. And not holding back... for the first time in my life I know what I want, who I am, and what I'm doing. Sure, I'm going to make PLENTY of mistakes, and I have SO much to learn, but I'm just happy I've gotten to this point.

If you feel like you've had enough, if you feel like your life is going nowhere....please remember to ask God to do wonderful things in your life. Ask Him to give you opportunities and to allow you to see the good things in every situation.

It's not cool to lie to me. It's not cool to avoid me, or ignore me in any way. Don't do that. Don't tell me one thing, and do another.

I promise I'll never be that person. I have a lot of love to give.

♥

i wanna be where you are.

it seems time goes by so fast,
i'm figuring things out.
i realized i need to be the mature person i am on the inside...
things come out wrong sometimes.
i'm trying to change things.
i'm trying to look past it all...
i want to close my eyes.
this is all too much. i can't be the same person always.
i eventually will be more than i am now.
i see things differently than you do.

today was far too ordinary.
give me something to smile about.

making that moment last,

It seems I need anyone right now, yet the more I long for someone to be here for me, the further everyone seems. Today, I started feeling this weird feeling and I can't get out of it. I have been thinking a lot about life in general. I've been seeing people around me in pain, and it's making me feel their energy.

I've found life is 10% of what happens to you, and 90% how you react to it. I'm fully convinced of this.

"When we focus on what we see, we lose sight of what we feel. When we focus on what we hear, we lose sight of our thoughts. And when we focus on what's going on around us, we forget our dreams. Sometimes all we need is ourselves."

-Corbin


Sometimes I just breathe, and I think about how all the small things don't matter. I realiz

I'm beyond astonished with this world. I'm happy people come to me for advice, it shows a lot to me. That they trust me and I can help them in some sort of way. But when will the favor be returned? I don't have all the answers. Sure, I've been through a lot of situations and I understand a lot of things, but I don't know soo, so much. I'm helpless at times. I find comfort in what people can't explain. I find myself lost in words, lost in photographs. I see myself in a reflection and I see more than a reflection, I see a deep person and I see a life filled with memories. Looking back on my past, I feel lucky. I could sit here listening to acoustic music and reminisce on all of my memories, and words truly fail to explain... truly.

I never thought the feelings I have now exist. And it's a good thing. It proves I'm ALIVE.

I have lungs and the capacity to carry on no matter what. The clouds I see, no problem can compare to the beauty I see. The country sky, the raindrops on my face. Nothing can hurt me in the longrun. Nothing matters but living life to its fullest. It makes problems non-existent< It makes me want to do whatever my heart desires and not holding back at all.

I know something is out there. I KNOW with all of my heart this life isn't for nothing. I know God is out there as much as I EVER have. I feel his presence, I know he's there more than I know I'm typing on this computer. All of this is not possible without Him. The fact that I'm living, I'm breathing, I'm elements put together, and I'm THINKING, that's enough to completely amaze and confuse me. It's all a divine chaos.

Let's run away. Forget where we came from. Just run, never look back. To a place that will accept us with open arms..

Life is hard, I know. It's really complicated. Yet so simple. Single-handedly, it's all about the mindset you have.

I can't watch anyone else linger away from myself...

I may be different, and you may look at me like you don't know what I'm talking about, but you don't see what I see. You can't appreciate the wind simply blowing like I can. You don't see that life isn't so bad. You don't feel the same feelings I feel by being alive. It's enough just to feel the wind blow through my hair. To know I appreciate my life. I don't see the negativity anymore. I just see contentment.

love. ♥

we escape from the windows, never look back,

F.F. (fun fact): This above picture is my background on my laptop!

I love it. It reminds me I have a whole life before me. I have opportunities lurking around every corner. It reminds me of the beauty in the world we sometimes miss. Yes, I got all of that from a simple picture. That's where inspiration comes into play!

Well, even though things have been a bit rocky, I've found my ground. I've found a way to be happy today, overall. Even though I do sort of wish things were different.

Currently listening to: Break out, break out (acoustic) by All Time Low

I was told today, maybe in different words, "you seem like a girl who has her head on straight, who knows what she wants, and who knows everything about life. You seem like the kind of girl that doesn't let things get to her." by an adult in my school that I have a lot of respect for now. Not just because she said that. I am so glad to hear that, I love to be understood. I said, "Well, I'm sure there's a lot I don't know." And there is. I have a lot of things figured out. I don't let things bother me for the most part. Sometimes I can't help it, but generally I am optimistic and look past the negativity. It improves your life so much.

I don't want to see anyone drift away from me. It's like I'm on an island, where we were once so perfectly happy together. And this person is leaving slowly on a boat, just floating away. There's nothing I can do to pull it back, all I can do is watch it float away and wish it would sail back to where it used to be.

I like change. Yeah. But when things are going so well,and then all of the sudden it stops...it leaves me to wonder. Questioning things. Contemplation is the highest form of activity, that's true.

This past weekend was fun. It was swell.

Saturday is my road test date. Yayyyy.

i've been in situations where i care way too much. i wish i didn't because it causes more heartbreak than anything...i am realizing i don't care what people think of me anymore. i do what i want without caring if they are judging me. i'm living for myself and for god. that's all that matters. i can truly say now, i'm content with where i am. i can say that things are changing, i'm changing. i'm learning what love really entails, and life is different than i originally thought. it's all about your mindset.

love ♥

it's the choices that makes us who we are.

"I'll stay with you forever just as long as you love me too, just as long as you love me. It's the way that you talk and the way that you smile. And the way that you love black and white. Maybe it's the way that you hold my hand in the car. And the way that we ly in the sand. It's not that hard to see that a single day without you could make me go crazy. Takes my breath away, gives me butterflies when you hold me when you sleep. When you hold me in your sleep. I never want to leave."

There are two ways to live life:

1. Live in the past, think about how things could have been different, contemplate on your mistakes,

OR

2. Love the moment, think about how many amazing memories will be created, focus on how you can change your life for the better.

Currently listening to: dream at a tempo, by silversun pickups

Current mood: worried.

I want to lay outside and watch the stars. Lately the stars haven't been clear or evident in these cloudy skies, which is why I'm getting sick of winter. summer nights, that's what i live for.

you know what else i live for? jesus christ. he diedfor me, the least i could do is live for him.

I need to figure things out in my life, well other peoples lives more than mine...I feel it's my responsibility to help them, to mold them to who they were before. They said they need my help in other words, so that's exactly what I'm going to do. I can't let them fall. I have too much love to give.

lights at night, light breeze carrying the smell of fire, quarter past 3, the leaves are dancing, and shadows pass quickly. i'm here, waiting...where are you when the night is calapsing down on me? walking the sidewalks without your hand in mine. how will i ever find my way without your spirit? i never realized what i was feeling didn't exist. the movement was nothing at all. nothing but memories and photographs slowly disappearing...

this night we've came to claim ours,

I don't like seeing people slip away from me.

I saw the lovely bones last night. It had so many life lessons involved. It gave me the weirdest feeling... The small problems in life don't add up to the moments of pleasure you will experience. Sometimes you have to accept bad things that happen even though it may be hard to move on. People in your life come and go but you will always have the ones who matter. Life goes on, truly.

Will my world still be lit up when you're gone?

I'm the advice-giving kind of person. When it's asked for. I love to be responsible for someone being happy or helping someone. I like when people can come to me and really talk to me, because I think I have good views on things. I think I can really help people with certain things. I'm mature in that aspect. I see the big picture, and I think I'm very understanding of how people feel. Maybe this will come in handy in my future career. :)

Sometimes all I want is myself and for people to understand that person.

All I know is I still believe. I still believe in life, in love, and in staying true to myself and what I want.

I've definitely learned there is a difference between the people I care about and the people I love. It's not a thin line, there is a world of difference. I care for many, but the people I really love, I see such a difference in how I see them and how I feel for them. Never knew it was so different than what I see now.

Everything passes, sometimes too slowly, sometimes too quickly, but always...it's exactly how it's supposed to be.

i'll run away with you by my side,

I can't guarantee I'm not going to fall sometimes. I'm here to laugh, but I can't say tears will never exist. But I can tell you, I will leave a mark on this earth. I will change something.

I feel such a sense of relief. Repairing relationships is something I'm focused on.

Currently listening to: Dreaming of this, Jamestown Story

It's been a while since I completely broke down, and I'm happy to say that. Sometimes crying feels so good. It lets everything go. Sometimes I don't even know why I'm crying, but I feel better afterwards. It's a feeling that's like no emotion. Or perhaps too many emotions? I'm not sure. I start to think about life. About the bad and good things I've experienced. And everything is so beautiful, so perfect. I don't see the negative things anymore. I avoid disaster. I don't feel completely lost anymore. I'm glad I was lost, now looking back, because sometimes we have to be lost to be found. And then everything was worth the pain.

Don't mistake me for someone who will let you go when you need me the most. If you reach out your hand, I will grab it. But I can't force anything.

I am feeling such a sense of relief. Yesterday I resolved a problem I've been holding onto, and it feels better. A person I care about was sort of distraught, and it made me feel their pain. I feel I helped them, and that's what I live for.

I've spent too much time wondering and contemplating on situations, and I've learned not to do that. I'm just living my life and taking things as it comes, and hoping for the best.

Today should be fun. A few plans :)

love forever. ♥

the world she loves will never be the world it was.

I kind of like sitting, contemplating and just being still. just being with you and your mind. and knowing that everything really will be okay.

i can almost feel the excitement my life is going to hold. i can taste the pure joy i'm going to experience. sure, there will be tough times. but there will always be. i've always gotten through everything i've been handed. and i'm sooo happy. i don't really have all that many reasons to be happy (I'm living, aren't I?) but, I just feel that happiness that comes from God. He can transform your life. Through Him, I have so much hope to live. So much hope to truly feel. It's the weirdest feeling, emotionally and physically. To have complete contentment. I've reached that today, I believe. My breaths feel lighter, and my thoughts feel more passive.

Thank you God, for answering my prayers and continuing to do things in my life!!!

I feel as though everything may be getting better.

love. ♥

YouTube - Pants on the Ground (and LYRICS!) - American Idol Season 9 - Atlanta

YouTube - Pants on the Ground (and LYRICS!) - American Idol Season 9 - Atlanta: "Pants on"

let the river of life flow within you

the beach relaxes me, and i hope to live near/on one one day. i hope to live an exciting life. do things people normally don't do.

i guess today was a pretty normal day. good things, and not-so-good things.

i'm expecting tomorrow to be a good day for some reason.

i've been captivated by the stars lately. they are so amazing. i can't really see any right now, but i didn't look too well. i wish it was summer again, when i could lay on my roof, look at the stars, and not have to be freezing cold. plus, it's just so worry-free that time of year. so many more opportunities.

i truly look up to people who have big dreams. it's cool.

"be lucid in all your actions." i think that's something we could all incorporate into our lives. lucid means clear and easily understood. so we should be intelligible, rational, and a bit plain in what we do, and how speak.

be the person you want to be remembered as.

love. ♥

i see you, i feel you

i'm listening to piano music. this kind gives me a weird, sad feeling almost.

maybe we're all here to be more than just a person. when you see the person walking down the street, we are quick to judge. they have a whole life story. they have thoughts just like you. they could be having the worst day they've ever had. or the best one. we don't know. the truth is, no matter who we think they are, we shouldn't be so quick to judge. because 99% of the time, we're completely wrong.

also, i think when people are mean or rude to us, it's usually not about you. it's about themselves. which is why i believe we should be totally nice back to them. not only will we infect them with kindness, but it will retaliate back to ourselves.

i'm not one to preach about this, because i judge people (like everyone). i really try not to. but of course, i have opinions on it. and if you're an avid reader of my blog, you know i like to give out my opinions. especially about valuable things that have helped me.

i'm listening to this amazing, amazing song.

one last wish by james homer.

no matter what kind of music you like, i'm sure you can enjoy this. it has no words. which makes it unique. it's not drab though. at all.

interesting.

people can be very cruel on this earth. i do believe all people have beauty in them, and most people on our earth are good people. but it seems like so many people lately are focused on being rude. i don't like when people ignore me. it's so annoying. or when they do things on purpose to make me mad. ugh. i wish i could strip the annoying behaviors from people, and make them who i want them to be. i guess that's a weakness of mine. because i can't change people. i need to accept that. accept them for who they are. but when they hurt me on purpose, i am done trying. i just want people to be there for me. and care about how they make me feel.

i want to see titanic again. how i love that movie. best ever.

tiredness is sweeping over me. so i'll try to get things done.

i once was lost, but now i'm found

i'm here to smile. though i can't promise tears will never exist.

deep down i'm happy, but right now i feel a sudden sadness. trying to deal with it gets hard.

i get into these moods sometimes.

why do you want to be in my life? prove to me i'm worth it. prove to me you're capable of loving me, and that you're worth my love. i have a lot to give away. i don't like to waste time on people who will hurt me. intentionally. i like people who are here to help me when i fall. because i will always be exactly that person.

i don't really know what i'm saying today, words just come out.

it's becoming clear to me how much some things really are changing. and how i'm trying to find all these ways to adapt. i can't change my past, so i don't worry about it. i can't control my future 100%, so i try to take life as it comes. i try not to look at things as "bad" or "good" but just neutral. i have had issues, but i don't see them as bad things. nor good things. i just see them. and appreciate them. does that make any sort of sense?

i'm not the type to judge you. i'm here to listen. i'm not the type to leave you when you need me the most. those people are duchers. don't do that to me. ever.

i'm lost without god. i can't imagine my life without him. honestly, it would be SO much different. i don't even want to think about where my life would be. i can say i don't think it would be going in a positive direction. but thankfully, i have him. ♥

currently listening to: amazing because it is by the almost

you caught me in your hands, like that bug in the summer night. so go ahead and scream, because you know you need to. you captured me so gently, but let me go to be free. you knew exactly why i lit up. and it was because as i flew around your hair that the wind caught so well, i saw the smile on your face. i saw how even in the dark you lit up the sky.

i wrote that in a minute or so. i don't know where it's really coming from. i know it's not great. not even close. but it gives me this amazing feeling. i can't explain it. maybe i'm different. so what? maybe i have more to offer than you "normal" people. notice the quotations. because normal doesn't exactly exist.

when it all comes down, the sunrise on the east side. will you be there to carry on? my wasted youth, this wasted time on you has left me shaken, wanting something more.

be my eternal light.

life consists of so many things.

i can honestly say i wish i was there. yep.

I feel much better now. And although some may say this kind of day was a not-so-good one, I can say that I had a good day. I liked it. Very different from my normal days.

I got my nose pierced:) Just a small diamond stud. It hurt A LOT! One of the worst pains I've experienced. But it was worth it. I like it.

It's almost 9:30PM. I'm pretty tired though. A couple of friends are coming to pick me up, and I'm going back to her house. Sooo, it should be fun. I saw a couple of friends at target today, and it was pretty cool. Hugs are always great. I feel I need hugs.

I'm trying to be calm. I have all the reasons in the world to be completely relaxed, but for some reason I get worked up over absolutely nothing. It's strange. Everything's good though.

I love that life consists of so many great things. I love that I'm at the point in my life, and within the next few years, where I can do anything my heart desires. I love my family, but sadly, they didn't do much with their lives. And that is cool if that is the life that they want to live. It's just different than what I want. For example, I want a good education, and a career. I want to travel, I want to do spectacular things. It's not impossible, because I truly, truly believe if you want something you should follow your urge, and do whatever you can to get to the place you would like to be at. I feel it's my calling to help people. It's awesome. God is awesome. It's all awesome. I get so excited about life. Some people say I'm carefree/careless. No, I care about MANY things and MANY people. I just don't care about the negativity and drama. I'm not going to completely ignore it and pretend it doesn't exist, but I'm NOT going to solely focus on the bad. I'm going to live my life like God wants us all to. I laugh, I sing, I dance, I never am anyone but myself. I don't believe I should have to. I am not afraid of opinions. My personal happiness is now a priority. Things are changing.

Some simple things I want to do within the next 6 months or so:

-cry in the pouring rain (sounds depressing, but i think crying is a way of letting everything out)

-make some hilarious youtube videos (i don't know, i'm weird like that)

-be someone's hero (wow, how great would that be, hearing someone tell you that?)

-do charity work (so rewarding)

-grow closer to people (♥)

i promise you, with faith, you can live the most amazing life you want. happiness is not about the circumstances you've been in, it's about the choices you make now.

i love you.

this is the correlation of salvation & love.

shello. ♥ i'm feeling very sick. tear tear.

i just got out of the shower. ahh. i feel much better. just thought i would tell you.
i feel as if i'm in some sort of daze. but not.

i wish i was feeling better, so i didn't have to feel like laying here is my only option. i wanted to do things and see people, but it's looking pretty impossible as of now. eh.

i just wanted to say hi, and remind you that you are loved by many:)

make it a good day.

this is a short post, i know. i need to sleep for an hour or so. then see how i'm feeling, and it will hopefully be better!

lessons learned.

overall, a good day. tomorrow=the last day of school this week for me. i'm not going to school friday. for a few reasons.

i'm honestly so happy that god has given me the ability to look past the negativity and see the good things most of the time. i love it, and i'm sooo thankful for it. it has gotten me through EVERYTHING. i promise, optimism is really the key to happiness. and happiness is the key to life.
i heard this quote, and it goes like this:
"my mom always told me the key to life was happiness. at school, they asked me what i wanted to be when i got older. i wrote down happy. they told me i didn't understand the assignment. i told them they didn't understand life."
i like that.

i love laughing! i find myself laughing and smiling so much lately. i finally, finally...know who i am. or know most things about myself. i'm learning so much about life and how to handle situations the right way. i've learned, when people infect you with meanness, infect them back with kindness. i've learned to look past peoples' mistakes and not to hold it against them. i've also learned life is all about choices, and how you choose to view your world is a direct reflection on your life. i have learned faith and belief in yourself is the biggest risk you can take, but is the most rewarding. i've learned no matter what people think of you, you have to hold your head up high and just be you. being a friendly, open, and nice person is the best decision i ever made. i've learned you just have to let go of the things that upset you, and believe tomorrow will be a better day. i've learned dreaming isn't a fantasy, it's a reality you can make if you believe in it. The last thing I'm going to say, i've learned that if you seek god, and ask for his help, he truly will transform your life.

some of these lessons have came easy to me. some i learned the hard way. having to make mistakes helps mold you into a better person, i believe.
i no longer think your past defines who you are.
i think people CAN change now.
i've witnessed it first hand.
i realized the way i was viewing my world was causing me to infect my own self even more. when i realized it was a choice to be happy, not about the circumstances you have had, i started living life. and loving it.

i wish everyone knew these things. i'm sure there are many, many things other people know that i don't even have a clue about too. but hey, i'm living my life. i'm learning things daily. i'm trusting god more and more. i'm finding things out that i never knew. i'm starting to believe in myself. and realizing the good things that are in store for me. and although i get sad and down often, i will always have the happiness inside of me. i will always have the ability to cope through things. and always, i will be corbin. and no one else.

(:

silence.

small, random acts of kindess. --> try it.

well, things are interesting and people are interesting, and this whole world is just interesting.

currently listening to: pretend by secondhand serenade

he creates the most relaxing music.

i don't understand why or how i'm feeling the way i am.

i just want someone. i feel like talking to somebody. who won't hang on every word i say, or judge anything i say. i love the kind of people who you can be silent with. you know you're comfortable around someone if you can say absolutely nothing around them and not feel awkward. i have that with a few people. it's kind of cool. a deeper level of friendship.

i want to face my fears, but i'm not really sure what they are. i think i'm really doing a good job in my life. a few aspects need to be changed. for example, i'm not a serious person. i want to work on people taking me more seriously, because i'm always, well a lot of times, joking around. i don't show my other side often. it's like that's all i know how to be. i feel like a different person now though. i really do. maybe i'm growing up. or perhaps i'm just changing into the person i've become. i'm not sure.

i'm going to work on killing people with kindness. when someone is mean or rude to me, i'm going to be extremely nice back. i'm a nice person, just sometimes i say exactly what's on my mind. i'm not the kind of person who likes hiding how i'm feeling. been there. done that. and it didn't work out good. i learn from my mistakes. always. i try not to make the same mistake twice. it's sort of ignorant.

if you think i'm the type of person who can let you go without saying goodbye...you're wrong. if i love you, i basically always, always will. and i have a hard time turning my head away from someone i care about. people are very important to me. very much so.

i love the feeling of relaxation, with no worries. i love the feeling of tiredness when it's early. so you can wake up rested. but i also like the feeling of being energetic at night. i'm a night person for sure. i'm not in a bad mood in the morning. but nights are when i get my energy usually. since school started, i've been tired ALL THE TIME, which sucks. eh.

it's 8:00 and i'm soooo tired. i'm going to attempt to go to sleep. yeah right. keyword: attempt. hey, i'll have a little faith. let me say this instead. i will go to sleep early.

HA!

love!!!<3

one more thing...silence is golden.

the world is yours. it's what you make it.

Yes. This is my life. And to be perfectly honest, somedays I don't know how I'm going to make it through. Sometimes I get down for no reason, and I can't explain it. Suddenly.

I need to constantly receive love. Is that a bad thing? I like to be loved, and to love. I feel I need to be loved, or feel loved. I'm a lover, not a fighter. I believe it makes the world go round.

I'm listening to the news, President Obama is speaking about a bomb-threat on an airplane on Christmas day. This is the first that I've heard of it. Partly because I don't watch the news anymore. I used to. I find that they use scare tactics, that I'm not fond of. I find that the news sort of depresses me. I know I need to know what's going on in the world, but I guess it just isn't a big deal for me. God will keep me safe no matter what...what else do I need to know?

Last year, I lost friends and became closer to people. It all evens out. I had my moments where I couldn't stand anything, and I had the best, most funfilled days I will never forget. All I know is, I'm changing this year. I'm doing things differently. It's hard to get out of habits--SOO hard! But I'm trying. And I think I'm succeeding so far. There's things that I'm working on. Becoming a well-rounded person is looking like more of a possibility as the days go by.

I think there is truly beauty in every person. I do.

Water. Earth. Sky. Sunshine.

Please smile, it helps. Say "doo da doo, life is good." AND BELIEVE IT!

love always.

thoughts about human civilization.

Honestly, I'm not feeling inspired and my head is clouded. I wasn't feeling sleep-deprived until I got home from school, which I guess is good.


Thoughts are running through my mind. I see a lot of things. I'm seeing the true reality of life. I'm seeing there's more to life than I originally thought. And what most think. I'm starting to see the big picture. I'm starting to see that no matter what happens, we are still living and capable of a good life. Everyone's definition of a "good life" is totally different. Perceptions are always based on the individual. It's so odd. How we all look at things. I could look at the sky and see blue. And you could look at the sky and see a totally different color. It's something we will never know for sure. Humans are so afraid of things they are unsure of. Especially with technology advancing as fast as it is. We feel like we know all of the answers. And the things we don't know, we are very curious about, yet there's some fear in there too. We know things people never even imagined 100 years ago, or even way shorter than that.
I remember seeing sci-fi "futuristic" movies. I'm starting to think the earth and technology is actually a lot like those movies. We are capable of doing so many things, things that you don't even know about.


That was a long paragraph, and I'm sure if I saw that, I would skim through it and not bother reading it all. While I'm on this topic...


All humans want one thing. To be loved. Every one of us long for that. We want to feel safe & to be loved.
We are more similiar than you think. We're all the same. Not one of us better than the homeless man sitting next to us on the public bus. We're equal.


The people who live their lives with hatred, need the most love. Because those who live their lives with hostility are the ones who are searching for the most love.



I am happy today, because I feel it was a good day. For once, semi-good school day.

I got a text today that instantly made me smile. I love those kind of texts. It says:
"Hi, I just wanted to let you know that I love you and I'm glad that I have you in my life."


Wow. How simple, yet powerful. Everyone needs to hear that every so often. This person is one of the most amazing people. I know so many of those kinds of people. & for that, I'm so thankful. This person truly holds a special part of my heart. I feel like they are one of the best friends I have ever had, or maybe even the best. Thank you to the people I will never be able to tell how much they truly mean to me.
In return to that text, I said I love you too and I hope you will always be in my life, or something along those lines.
The returned text after that said, "i will, forever."
Forever. That's unconditional love. I'm never letting that kind of love go. I can't. Too many people are close-minded and selfish. And I just need the people who love me, because they are truly, honestly, the best people I've ever met. It's awesome having someone that will accept everything you do and say with ease, and be there to help you whenever you need it. I'm building a support system more and more.

if there's one thing i'm absolutely sure of, i'm going to reach my goals and be happy...

lovelovelove.