life consists of so many things.

i can honestly say i wish i was there. yep.

I feel much better now. And although some may say this kind of day was a not-so-good one, I can say that I had a good day. I liked it. Very different from my normal days.

I got my nose pierced:) Just a small diamond stud. It hurt A LOT! One of the worst pains I've experienced. But it was worth it. I like it.

It's almost 9:30PM. I'm pretty tired though. A couple of friends are coming to pick me up, and I'm going back to her house. Sooo, it should be fun. I saw a couple of friends at target today, and it was pretty cool. Hugs are always great. I feel I need hugs.

I'm trying to be calm. I have all the reasons in the world to be completely relaxed, but for some reason I get worked up over absolutely nothing. It's strange. Everything's good though.

I love that life consists of so many great things. I love that I'm at the point in my life, and within the next few years, where I can do anything my heart desires. I love my family, but sadly, they didn't do much with their lives. And that is cool if that is the life that they want to live. It's just different than what I want. For example, I want a good education, and a career. I want to travel, I want to do spectacular things. It's not impossible, because I truly, truly believe if you want something you should follow your urge, and do whatever you can to get to the place you would like to be at. I feel it's my calling to help people. It's awesome. God is awesome. It's all awesome. I get so excited about life. Some people say I'm carefree/careless. No, I care about MANY things and MANY people. I just don't care about the negativity and drama. I'm not going to completely ignore it and pretend it doesn't exist, but I'm NOT going to solely focus on the bad. I'm going to live my life like God wants us all to. I laugh, I sing, I dance, I never am anyone but myself. I don't believe I should have to. I am not afraid of opinions. My personal happiness is now a priority. Things are changing.

Some simple things I want to do within the next 6 months or so:

-cry in the pouring rain (sounds depressing, but i think crying is a way of letting everything out)

-make some hilarious youtube videos (i don't know, i'm weird like that)

-be someone's hero (wow, how great would that be, hearing someone tell you that?)

-do charity work (so rewarding)

-grow closer to people (♥)

i promise you, with faith, you can live the most amazing life you want. happiness is not about the circumstances you've been in, it's about the choices you make now.

i love you.