suddenly i understand everything i couldn't comprehend,

Maybe I do expect too much out of people. You're going to see a lot of random sentences/thoughts in this post. My life has been turning in circles this week, and I'm just ready for it to end. Let me just say: I love miraculous people who make our world better. The smallest things make the biggest difference in my eyes. I really want a rainy day. You don't see that in winter like you do in spring. I care a lot about the people in my life. I get attached to people easily. I'm not sure why. I do though. I find myself missing my friends when I'm not with them lately. If you knew how I am, you'd find that surprising because as much as I love being with people, I get annoyed with them after awhile. But I'm thankful to have found the amazing people who I could spend every moment with and never get annoyed or bored. I want someone who knows what I'm talking about even when I don't. I want people who will wipe my tears away. I want someone who thinks like I do, and who isn't involved in the drama that I try not to face. I really need to know these kind of people exist. I find comfort in feeling protected and like I am able to take care of people, and be taken care of.
Stability in my life right now would be great.



You know what feels good telling someone?
"Im so proud of you."
I told someone that yesterday, and I was so glad I did, because after they said "thank you so much. it's been so long since someone has told me that." And that made me so happy, yet so sad. Happy because I wanted to be that person to make them feel better. But sad because everyone deserves to hear that. Especially the people who try to do the right thing so much. And who are the kind of people who make you proud to know them.

Michigan, you suck. I've been searching for the stars and they're just shy of coming out for Corbin to see.

As tough as it's been lately, I'll admit things are getting better. I sometimes wonder if it's better for myself to think about my problems in hope of my mind sorting them out, or if it's better to just not think about it and move passed. I really don't know. Bewilderment to its finest.

I have a lot of deep thoughts, my over-analyzing characteristics come out sometimes. I try to keep my philosophies about life to myself, because it just feels like no one sees the world like I do. And they don't. Because when I attempt to describe the complexity and completely astonishing life, no one really gets it. Or maybe I don't get it. Either way, we see things differently.


I've realized a lot lately, I'm growing in a lot of ways. I make mistakes daily. But I'm learning so much and getting to be the person I want to be overall. Still so much to go through and to learn. The last two days I've been too sad so tomorrow I'm going to decide to be happy.