i won't give up on my own happiness. i won't forget what i can be and how i can view life.
i really went to bed last night wanting to go on with my day the following day. i woke up happy and excited for the new things i knew i was going to experience. i thought it was good change, i figured everything would fall into place, just like it always does eventually.
i realized i was wrong as the day went on.
it seemed like everywhere i looked there were people trying to bring me down. constant stresses and problems that i couldn't take anymore. i cried a few times this day. i'm not the type to get into these moods and let these kind of things affect me. at all. but i can't promise tears will never exist. i'm not strong enough all the time.
i was soo relieved when i saw someone, and they realized something was wrong with me; when they asked, i felt as if there was no way i could hold my tears in. so i let them out. there was so many people around, but i didn't care. people's opinions don't bother me. and crying isn't a sign of weakness. things happen. people started hugging me, telling me they would be there for me, telling me how much i meant to them, just making me feel so much better. sometimes that's all we need. even people i have never talked to gave me hugs and were concerned. sometimes i forget these kind of people exist. those one of a kind, truly amazing people that i need. gives me hope. i've always said every single person holds beauty. i believe that, and i love proving that fact.
i prayed for pure happiness and optimism, and i really got that. sure, sometimes i'm going to get upset. we can't be on top all the time, right? i'm so happy and lucky that i know God the way that i do. he has helped me so much and i can never express how much i am thankful and how much i want to live for Him.
things that are important to me:
faith
promises
friendship
love
knowledge
expression
compassion
don't let me go.
why do i constantly need this validation?
why do i experience emotions on such a deep level? as if i'm feeling every single aspect of the feeling...sometimes it's all too much.
sometimes i fight myself more than anything. i over-analyze everything, this i know. i'm working on it.
summer nights, drift back to me.
love. ♥
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