how the stars reflect in your eyes shows me possibilities.

I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. Some of those we'll never know. But we can always dream. We're all so different in our own ways, and we see things in a different light. But we want the same basic things out of life. Love. Happiness. Fun. And that's pretty cool if you think about it.

So I guess we will never know exactly how we all relate. In some weird way, we'll never know ourselves as well as we can. Things change, people change. I'm seeing myself go in different directions and contradicting my actions and words at all points. Sometimes I wonder why I say the things I say, or why the thoughts in my mind wander there out of nowhere. I'm not afraid of my future. I'm excited to go through the journey of life. Honestly, it excites me to know that God has my life all planned out for me, and if I follow Him, it will go exactly how I want it to go. I have that control.

And that doesn't scare me either. I'm a control freak to a certain extent. I really like, or have to be in control of things sometimes. And if I'm not, it irritates me. Well, that's one of my weaknesses but I guess it shows I have confidence in myself.

I'm very happy to call myself a good person. I'm not conceited. I don't think I'm perfect and I don't think so very highly of myself. But I'm happy with myself. There's a million things I wish to change about myself at times, but I'm aware that I'm not perfect. And I'm trying to change things. I think I'm a good friend. I try to be. And It's too hard for me to say goodbye to the people I love. Sometimes all I want is to be alone. And other times, I just want to spend my time with people. Sometimes I want someone to ask me "what's wrong?" and have them not take "nothing" for an answer. As cliche as that may sound.

I feel like I'm writing a novel of a post, but I have a lot to say, partly because I haven't written in a couple or few days.

Studying for exams the past couple of days has made my brain hurt. I don't like it.

News: I got my license. Well, I will officially be getting it tomorrow, but I passed my road test. Yay.

Everything makes sense after a while. Thinking about the significance of life gives me chills, and frankly, it makes everything worth while...

Choose who you want to be. Choose where you want to go, who you want to love, and what you stand for. It will all be worth it in the end. <3


love, truly, always.