i'll run away with you by my side,

I can't guarantee I'm not going to fall sometimes. I'm here to laugh, but I can't say tears will never exist. But I can tell you, I will leave a mark on this earth. I will change something.

I feel such a sense of relief. Repairing relationships is something I'm focused on.

Currently listening to: Dreaming of this, Jamestown Story

It's been a while since I completely broke down, and I'm happy to say that. Sometimes crying feels so good. It lets everything go. Sometimes I don't even know why I'm crying, but I feel better afterwards. It's a feeling that's like no emotion. Or perhaps too many emotions? I'm not sure. I start to think about life. About the bad and good things I've experienced. And everything is so beautiful, so perfect. I don't see the negative things anymore. I avoid disaster. I don't feel completely lost anymore. I'm glad I was lost, now looking back, because sometimes we have to be lost to be found. And then everything was worth the pain.

Don't mistake me for someone who will let you go when you need me the most. If you reach out your hand, I will grab it. But I can't force anything.

I am feeling such a sense of relief. Yesterday I resolved a problem I've been holding onto, and it feels better. A person I care about was sort of distraught, and it made me feel their pain. I feel I helped them, and that's what I live for.

I've spent too much time wondering and contemplating on situations, and I've learned not to do that. I'm just living my life and taking things as it comes, and hoping for the best.

Today should be fun. A few plans :)

love forever. ♥

the world she loves will never be the world it was.

I kind of like sitting, contemplating and just being still. just being with you and your mind. and knowing that everything really will be okay.

i can almost feel the excitement my life is going to hold. i can taste the pure joy i'm going to experience. sure, there will be tough times. but there will always be. i've always gotten through everything i've been handed. and i'm sooo happy. i don't really have all that many reasons to be happy (I'm living, aren't I?) but, I just feel that happiness that comes from God. He can transform your life. Through Him, I have so much hope to live. So much hope to truly feel. It's the weirdest feeling, emotionally and physically. To have complete contentment. I've reached that today, I believe. My breaths feel lighter, and my thoughts feel more passive.

Thank you God, for answering my prayers and continuing to do things in my life!!!

I feel as though everything may be getting better.

love. ♥

YouTube - Pants on the Ground (and LYRICS!) - American Idol Season 9 - Atlanta

YouTube - Pants on the Ground (and LYRICS!) - American Idol Season 9 - Atlanta: "Pants on"

let the river of life flow within you

the beach relaxes me, and i hope to live near/on one one day. i hope to live an exciting life. do things people normally don't do.

i guess today was a pretty normal day. good things, and not-so-good things.

i'm expecting tomorrow to be a good day for some reason.

i've been captivated by the stars lately. they are so amazing. i can't really see any right now, but i didn't look too well. i wish it was summer again, when i could lay on my roof, look at the stars, and not have to be freezing cold. plus, it's just so worry-free that time of year. so many more opportunities.

i truly look up to people who have big dreams. it's cool.

"be lucid in all your actions." i think that's something we could all incorporate into our lives. lucid means clear and easily understood. so we should be intelligible, rational, and a bit plain in what we do, and how speak.

be the person you want to be remembered as.

love. ♥

i see you, i feel you

i'm listening to piano music. this kind gives me a weird, sad feeling almost.

maybe we're all here to be more than just a person. when you see the person walking down the street, we are quick to judge. they have a whole life story. they have thoughts just like you. they could be having the worst day they've ever had. or the best one. we don't know. the truth is, no matter who we think they are, we shouldn't be so quick to judge. because 99% of the time, we're completely wrong.

also, i think when people are mean or rude to us, it's usually not about you. it's about themselves. which is why i believe we should be totally nice back to them. not only will we infect them with kindness, but it will retaliate back to ourselves.

i'm not one to preach about this, because i judge people (like everyone). i really try not to. but of course, i have opinions on it. and if you're an avid reader of my blog, you know i like to give out my opinions. especially about valuable things that have helped me.

i'm listening to this amazing, amazing song.

one last wish by james homer.

no matter what kind of music you like, i'm sure you can enjoy this. it has no words. which makes it unique. it's not drab though. at all.

interesting.

people can be very cruel on this earth. i do believe all people have beauty in them, and most people on our earth are good people. but it seems like so many people lately are focused on being rude. i don't like when people ignore me. it's so annoying. or when they do things on purpose to make me mad. ugh. i wish i could strip the annoying behaviors from people, and make them who i want them to be. i guess that's a weakness of mine. because i can't change people. i need to accept that. accept them for who they are. but when they hurt me on purpose, i am done trying. i just want people to be there for me. and care about how they make me feel.

i want to see titanic again. how i love that movie. best ever.

tiredness is sweeping over me. so i'll try to get things done.

i once was lost, but now i'm found

i'm here to smile. though i can't promise tears will never exist.

deep down i'm happy, but right now i feel a sudden sadness. trying to deal with it gets hard.

i get into these moods sometimes.

why do you want to be in my life? prove to me i'm worth it. prove to me you're capable of loving me, and that you're worth my love. i have a lot to give away. i don't like to waste time on people who will hurt me. intentionally. i like people who are here to help me when i fall. because i will always be exactly that person.

i don't really know what i'm saying today, words just come out.

it's becoming clear to me how much some things really are changing. and how i'm trying to find all these ways to adapt. i can't change my past, so i don't worry about it. i can't control my future 100%, so i try to take life as it comes. i try not to look at things as "bad" or "good" but just neutral. i have had issues, but i don't see them as bad things. nor good things. i just see them. and appreciate them. does that make any sort of sense?

i'm not the type to judge you. i'm here to listen. i'm not the type to leave you when you need me the most. those people are duchers. don't do that to me. ever.

i'm lost without god. i can't imagine my life without him. honestly, it would be SO much different. i don't even want to think about where my life would be. i can say i don't think it would be going in a positive direction. but thankfully, i have him. ♥

currently listening to: amazing because it is by the almost

you caught me in your hands, like that bug in the summer night. so go ahead and scream, because you know you need to. you captured me so gently, but let me go to be free. you knew exactly why i lit up. and it was because as i flew around your hair that the wind caught so well, i saw the smile on your face. i saw how even in the dark you lit up the sky.

i wrote that in a minute or so. i don't know where it's really coming from. i know it's not great. not even close. but it gives me this amazing feeling. i can't explain it. maybe i'm different. so what? maybe i have more to offer than you "normal" people. notice the quotations. because normal doesn't exactly exist.

when it all comes down, the sunrise on the east side. will you be there to carry on? my wasted youth, this wasted time on you has left me shaken, wanting something more.

be my eternal light.

life consists of so many things.

i can honestly say i wish i was there. yep.

I feel much better now. And although some may say this kind of day was a not-so-good one, I can say that I had a good day. I liked it. Very different from my normal days.

I got my nose pierced:) Just a small diamond stud. It hurt A LOT! One of the worst pains I've experienced. But it was worth it. I like it.

It's almost 9:30PM. I'm pretty tired though. A couple of friends are coming to pick me up, and I'm going back to her house. Sooo, it should be fun. I saw a couple of friends at target today, and it was pretty cool. Hugs are always great. I feel I need hugs.

I'm trying to be calm. I have all the reasons in the world to be completely relaxed, but for some reason I get worked up over absolutely nothing. It's strange. Everything's good though.

I love that life consists of so many great things. I love that I'm at the point in my life, and within the next few years, where I can do anything my heart desires. I love my family, but sadly, they didn't do much with their lives. And that is cool if that is the life that they want to live. It's just different than what I want. For example, I want a good education, and a career. I want to travel, I want to do spectacular things. It's not impossible, because I truly, truly believe if you want something you should follow your urge, and do whatever you can to get to the place you would like to be at. I feel it's my calling to help people. It's awesome. God is awesome. It's all awesome. I get so excited about life. Some people say I'm carefree/careless. No, I care about MANY things and MANY people. I just don't care about the negativity and drama. I'm not going to completely ignore it and pretend it doesn't exist, but I'm NOT going to solely focus on the bad. I'm going to live my life like God wants us all to. I laugh, I sing, I dance, I never am anyone but myself. I don't believe I should have to. I am not afraid of opinions. My personal happiness is now a priority. Things are changing.

Some simple things I want to do within the next 6 months or so:

-cry in the pouring rain (sounds depressing, but i think crying is a way of letting everything out)

-make some hilarious youtube videos (i don't know, i'm weird like that)

-be someone's hero (wow, how great would that be, hearing someone tell you that?)

-do charity work (so rewarding)

-grow closer to people (♥)

i promise you, with faith, you can live the most amazing life you want. happiness is not about the circumstances you've been in, it's about the choices you make now.

i love you.

this is the correlation of salvation & love.

shello. ♥ i'm feeling very sick. tear tear.

i just got out of the shower. ahh. i feel much better. just thought i would tell you.
i feel as if i'm in some sort of daze. but not.

i wish i was feeling better, so i didn't have to feel like laying here is my only option. i wanted to do things and see people, but it's looking pretty impossible as of now. eh.

i just wanted to say hi, and remind you that you are loved by many:)

make it a good day.

this is a short post, i know. i need to sleep for an hour or so. then see how i'm feeling, and it will hopefully be better!

lessons learned.

overall, a good day. tomorrow=the last day of school this week for me. i'm not going to school friday. for a few reasons.

i'm honestly so happy that god has given me the ability to look past the negativity and see the good things most of the time. i love it, and i'm sooo thankful for it. it has gotten me through EVERYTHING. i promise, optimism is really the key to happiness. and happiness is the key to life.
i heard this quote, and it goes like this:
"my mom always told me the key to life was happiness. at school, they asked me what i wanted to be when i got older. i wrote down happy. they told me i didn't understand the assignment. i told them they didn't understand life."
i like that.

i love laughing! i find myself laughing and smiling so much lately. i finally, finally...know who i am. or know most things about myself. i'm learning so much about life and how to handle situations the right way. i've learned, when people infect you with meanness, infect them back with kindness. i've learned to look past peoples' mistakes and not to hold it against them. i've also learned life is all about choices, and how you choose to view your world is a direct reflection on your life. i have learned faith and belief in yourself is the biggest risk you can take, but is the most rewarding. i've learned no matter what people think of you, you have to hold your head up high and just be you. being a friendly, open, and nice person is the best decision i ever made. i've learned you just have to let go of the things that upset you, and believe tomorrow will be a better day. i've learned dreaming isn't a fantasy, it's a reality you can make if you believe in it. The last thing I'm going to say, i've learned that if you seek god, and ask for his help, he truly will transform your life.

some of these lessons have came easy to me. some i learned the hard way. having to make mistakes helps mold you into a better person, i believe.
i no longer think your past defines who you are.
i think people CAN change now.
i've witnessed it first hand.
i realized the way i was viewing my world was causing me to infect my own self even more. when i realized it was a choice to be happy, not about the circumstances you have had, i started living life. and loving it.

i wish everyone knew these things. i'm sure there are many, many things other people know that i don't even have a clue about too. but hey, i'm living my life. i'm learning things daily. i'm trusting god more and more. i'm finding things out that i never knew. i'm starting to believe in myself. and realizing the good things that are in store for me. and although i get sad and down often, i will always have the happiness inside of me. i will always have the ability to cope through things. and always, i will be corbin. and no one else.

(:

silence.

small, random acts of kindess. --> try it.

well, things are interesting and people are interesting, and this whole world is just interesting.

currently listening to: pretend by secondhand serenade

he creates the most relaxing music.

i don't understand why or how i'm feeling the way i am.

i just want someone. i feel like talking to somebody. who won't hang on every word i say, or judge anything i say. i love the kind of people who you can be silent with. you know you're comfortable around someone if you can say absolutely nothing around them and not feel awkward. i have that with a few people. it's kind of cool. a deeper level of friendship.

i want to face my fears, but i'm not really sure what they are. i think i'm really doing a good job in my life. a few aspects need to be changed. for example, i'm not a serious person. i want to work on people taking me more seriously, because i'm always, well a lot of times, joking around. i don't show my other side often. it's like that's all i know how to be. i feel like a different person now though. i really do. maybe i'm growing up. or perhaps i'm just changing into the person i've become. i'm not sure.

i'm going to work on killing people with kindness. when someone is mean or rude to me, i'm going to be extremely nice back. i'm a nice person, just sometimes i say exactly what's on my mind. i'm not the kind of person who likes hiding how i'm feeling. been there. done that. and it didn't work out good. i learn from my mistakes. always. i try not to make the same mistake twice. it's sort of ignorant.

if you think i'm the type of person who can let you go without saying goodbye...you're wrong. if i love you, i basically always, always will. and i have a hard time turning my head away from someone i care about. people are very important to me. very much so.

i love the feeling of relaxation, with no worries. i love the feeling of tiredness when it's early. so you can wake up rested. but i also like the feeling of being energetic at night. i'm a night person for sure. i'm not in a bad mood in the morning. but nights are when i get my energy usually. since school started, i've been tired ALL THE TIME, which sucks. eh.

it's 8:00 and i'm soooo tired. i'm going to attempt to go to sleep. yeah right. keyword: attempt. hey, i'll have a little faith. let me say this instead. i will go to sleep early.

HA!

love!!!<3

one more thing...silence is golden.

the world is yours. it's what you make it.

Yes. This is my life. And to be perfectly honest, somedays I don't know how I'm going to make it through. Sometimes I get down for no reason, and I can't explain it. Suddenly.

I need to constantly receive love. Is that a bad thing? I like to be loved, and to love. I feel I need to be loved, or feel loved. I'm a lover, not a fighter. I believe it makes the world go round.

I'm listening to the news, President Obama is speaking about a bomb-threat on an airplane on Christmas day. This is the first that I've heard of it. Partly because I don't watch the news anymore. I used to. I find that they use scare tactics, that I'm not fond of. I find that the news sort of depresses me. I know I need to know what's going on in the world, but I guess it just isn't a big deal for me. God will keep me safe no matter what...what else do I need to know?

Last year, I lost friends and became closer to people. It all evens out. I had my moments where I couldn't stand anything, and I had the best, most funfilled days I will never forget. All I know is, I'm changing this year. I'm doing things differently. It's hard to get out of habits--SOO hard! But I'm trying. And I think I'm succeeding so far. There's things that I'm working on. Becoming a well-rounded person is looking like more of a possibility as the days go by.

I think there is truly beauty in every person. I do.

Water. Earth. Sky. Sunshine.

Please smile, it helps. Say "doo da doo, life is good." AND BELIEVE IT!

love always.

thoughts about human civilization.

Honestly, I'm not feeling inspired and my head is clouded. I wasn't feeling sleep-deprived until I got home from school, which I guess is good.


Thoughts are running through my mind. I see a lot of things. I'm seeing the true reality of life. I'm seeing there's more to life than I originally thought. And what most think. I'm starting to see the big picture. I'm starting to see that no matter what happens, we are still living and capable of a good life. Everyone's definition of a "good life" is totally different. Perceptions are always based on the individual. It's so odd. How we all look at things. I could look at the sky and see blue. And you could look at the sky and see a totally different color. It's something we will never know for sure. Humans are so afraid of things they are unsure of. Especially with technology advancing as fast as it is. We feel like we know all of the answers. And the things we don't know, we are very curious about, yet there's some fear in there too. We know things people never even imagined 100 years ago, or even way shorter than that.
I remember seeing sci-fi "futuristic" movies. I'm starting to think the earth and technology is actually a lot like those movies. We are capable of doing so many things, things that you don't even know about.


That was a long paragraph, and I'm sure if I saw that, I would skim through it and not bother reading it all. While I'm on this topic...


All humans want one thing. To be loved. Every one of us long for that. We want to feel safe & to be loved.
We are more similiar than you think. We're all the same. Not one of us better than the homeless man sitting next to us on the public bus. We're equal.


The people who live their lives with hatred, need the most love. Because those who live their lives with hostility are the ones who are searching for the most love.



I am happy today, because I feel it was a good day. For once, semi-good school day.

I got a text today that instantly made me smile. I love those kind of texts. It says:
"Hi, I just wanted to let you know that I love you and I'm glad that I have you in my life."


Wow. How simple, yet powerful. Everyone needs to hear that every so often. This person is one of the most amazing people. I know so many of those kinds of people. & for that, I'm so thankful. This person truly holds a special part of my heart. I feel like they are one of the best friends I have ever had, or maybe even the best. Thank you to the people I will never be able to tell how much they truly mean to me.
In return to that text, I said I love you too and I hope you will always be in my life, or something along those lines.
The returned text after that said, "i will, forever."
Forever. That's unconditional love. I'm never letting that kind of love go. I can't. Too many people are close-minded and selfish. And I just need the people who love me, because they are truly, honestly, the best people I've ever met. It's awesome having someone that will accept everything you do and say with ease, and be there to help you whenever you need it. I'm building a support system more and more.

if there's one thing i'm absolutely sure of, i'm going to reach my goals and be happy...

lovelovelove.

everything just seems to hold beauty.

--> yes. it's true.

this picture is sort of random, but i like it. i see beauty in things that is hard to see, or different than what some see i guess.

Having love like this would be amazing.

i called a couple of piercing places a little bit ago, and they didn't answer. i want to get my nose pierced so badly.

i've been thinking about life in general a lot lately. i'm mesmerized by it. and death. it's such a strange concept to grasp. i'm not afraid of dying. i'm afraid of having my loved ones gone a little bit though. not horribly. i try not to think about it too much. my mind kind of blocks that thought. i know i will see all of my family and friends someday, we will all be reunited after this lifetime.

i'm kind of confused by my emotions, because i can't really tell how i'm feeling and it is frustrating me. perhaps i'm feeling too many emotions at once. maybe.

currently listening to: fuzzy blue lights -owl city

this song is exactly how i'm feeling right now, and it's a cool feeling to be recognized in some sort of way.

i want the snow to melt, so i can see the grass again. and i just want it to rain. rain for as long as it can. and feel the warm air. i'm excited for spring.

"everywhere i look, i see green

all those oceanic vistas are so divine."

things that make me happy:

-quotes

-pictures

-shopping

-hearing a loved one laugh as hard as they can (it's contagious)

-art galleries

-stars

-piano music

i'm kind of a freak in a lot of ways. well, i'm different than a lot of people. but i like who i am.

i meditated last night. it's amazing because you never feel so relaxed. your body has zero tension, you almost feel as if you're floating. it's serenity that i love. and sometimes, you feel closely connected with god. this might sound weird to those who have never felt like this. but it's a feeling of being infinite.

sometimes i like to cry. one of those feelings you get out of nowhere. where you're just thinking about all of the good and bad things, everything in between, life moments, and everything just seems to hold beauty. it's not like i had a reason to cry last night, it just came out. i was holding onto memories, and it just felt right.

i'm not a huge emotional person, but sometimes i feel like i have no reason to feel the way i am. after i cried, i felt so much better.

i remember when i was like 10, i couldn't wait to be a teenager. now, it's here. and it feels so much different. i'm tired of being 16. 4 more months approximately. sometimes i feel so much older. and sometimes i feel like i should still be 12. time is a weird thing. though it's really nothing, if we're getting into deeper thoughts here.

this post is long, and a bunch of random thoughts. i'm sorry if you don't understand half the things i write. i probably wouldn't if i weren't this person. i have passive thoughts, and i think deeply about everything. i'm not the best at describing things either, although i don't think i'm terrible at it.

i'm listening to piano music. nothing like this relaxes me. i can listen to a song i really like over and over and over again.

i miss people. alone time is over for me. i need it sometimes. i miss talking to certain people. i miss spending time with people i haven't seen. i miss their company and their laughs. how i miss iit.

i really love the ocean. the sand, the waves. the coral and fish. i'm actually kind of afraid of fish. i need to get over that because i plan on going scubadiving someday...

Tomorrow is the last day of christmas break. eh. i feels so unprepared, like i need a couple more days to get ready for what i know is coming. i have to think about it in a good way. i feel so different, like i've grown a lot. and actually, grown up a lot. so school should be better. though, it's never been bad at all. content. i miss people.

doo da doo, life is good:)

remember to live your life with love, meaning, and purpose. everyone has some sort of "calling" or reason they are put on this earth. i don't know what mine is, but i wish i could find out somehow. god is here to listen, to help, to heal. i wish everyone on this earth knew that.

infinite.

i like the word "infinite" so much because i like its meaning. its a feeling you get. and its a good one. i like that they use the word so amazingly in a beautiful book (that i happen to want). here's a couple more:

it's really late. i can't sleep, though i'm so tired that i can barely keep my eyes open. my mind wanders endlessly...
i need to lay some thoughts to rest.
i kind of have this new mindset. whenever I'm feeling down i tell myself "doo da doo. life's good."
sounds funny. it keeps your spirits up. i have a hard time doing that sometimes, but it's something i believe in doing. a positive outlook is the key to happiness. along with other things. but this is essential.

i've always wanted to have one of those old vintage bikes. the cool pastel colors. i don't know why. i miss riding my bike. i used to all the time. now, it's way too cold and snowy. but i miss that. and i'd feel way cooler having one of those vintage bikes:)

someone i care about is disappointing me. i feel as though we are going opposite ways. and like they are not putting forth the effort that i am. i'm not trying anymore. i can't do it. i know that out of every relationship i will have, there will always be people who disappoint me. that sounds so pessimistic, but it's true. everyone does let you down eventually. well, most. i'm still searching for somebody who won't.

my point exactly ^



i'm trying to be the kind of person who listens more than i speak.





2010 is going to be different for me, i can assure you.

ready for some randomness?
i love old people. i don't know why. i like the thought of a whole life story that they have. and i have so much curiousity about how much they have had to have gone through throughout their years. interesting, huh?

i am different:

-i don't change myself for anyone

-if i love you i will care about you with everything in me

-i go by inspiration and creativity

-god is my world and has gotten me so far

-i want to travel, live a simplistic life

-i listen to something other than rap

-i'm myself at all times

-i read

-i actually care about peoples feelings and don't fool around with emotions

-drama and gossip stops at me, i don't play the games

GOODNIGHT! LOVELOVELOVE.

i miss summer. a lot.

twenty.ten.

Don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are?

Currently listening to: All of my love, Led Zepplin

I'm not jaded. I'm learning what life holds for me as days go by. What's strange is that we will never really know what things hold for us, or reasons for everything. That means life is incomplete always; at some point we will realize we don't have all of the answers, and we never will.

That's what makes life. It makes so much sense that it's hard to comprehend. It's almost too much.

Does what I'm saying make any sort of sense at all?

Or is it too simple? Or too complex?

I think my thoughts are really only meant for me to understand. Perhaps...?

-Last night was fun. I stayed up late. Around 6:30. X-/ Like that face? Aha. I'm pretty tired. I stayed up making dance videos. So typical. Haha.

-Happy New Year!!:)

This post is short. & pretty pointless. I needed to clear my thoughts.

lovelovelove.

Like led zepplin said, all of my love to you. <3

since when do i like led zepplin you ask? i really don't. this one song is amazing though.

I live to let you shine.

Keep me here, I believe.

If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine

let's go here, where the beaches are wide, and like another galaxy.

let's find a rock to settle on, and watch the stars become more prominent.

let's skyrocket away from here.

i'm going out to dinner, and then to my friend's house. for a happy new years:)

i've been listening to music for 4 hours straight. just thinking. and listening.

i can tell things are changing for me.

i have to believe that each day is going to be better than the last.

i have to believe good things will come.

everything falls into place eventually.

-i will be okay.

facing the truth...?

Currently listening to: New Slang by The Shins

Like indie music? I like indie music. Chill. Sort of a vintage feel.

I wish you could see this in full size.
I'm sorry.
Because it's full of inspiration.
I made this with photography that I love, just a collage of the stuff I like a lot!






I have a new "about me" section. Read :)

I love vintage photography.

everyone is running from something.

I am completely unaware of a lot of things,

let me just say that.

Well, I've been listening to acoustic/indie music and I feel so odd after I do. I don't know, it gives me this weird feeling on top of how I'm feeling now. Hmm.

I realized I need explanations for everything. I don't want to simply hear what you're saying, I want to know WHY you're saying it. The feelings behind it; the reasoning.

-I want to be the brightest firefly in your jar.

Is this true? I think everyone has something they're running from or trying to escape from. Some sort of fear. I guess I have things I'm running from as well. Well, I believe sometimes we shouldn't run away from the things we are afraid of, but face them, because sometimes the things we are most afraid of are the things we need most in our lives.

I believe that.

--> I have a lot of pictures, and this one is probably my favorite. I love it so much. <--

I HATE being ignored, and that is how I'm feeling. I'm having one of those "depressed" days. Ahh, let's not go that far. I'm just not having the best emotional day. I have reasons though. I always do. People are disappointing me, and letting me down. I need people so much at times, and it seems like that's when they leave, when I need them the most.

All you have to do to be significant to me is love me, make me laugh, show me you care, and be here for me.

Is there more people out there who hold these qualities? I need to know these sort of people exist out there. I need to know I'm not absent of this. And I'm not.

I feel like I'm writing a novel of a blog right now.

Well, I have to say...I had a few views on my blog lately and it makes Corbin pretty happy :) I just feel like I have a lot to say, and I like being able to write my thoughts. I'm not coy about people knowing what I'm thinking.

Ohh... just FYI, the comments on my posts do not show up, so if you would like to leave a comment, that would be great, but they don't go on my blog publicly.

I wish I was there ^

lovelovelove.

what you may not know...

I'm not you.

You're not me.

And sense I'm pointing out the obvious, let me just say: I love this.

-i'm a complete nerd.
-i like to learn new things;

i wish i was super smart.
-i love music;

the kind that reminds me of things i love.
-i love acoustic songs
-rainy days are so uplifting
-i love God;

because He always helps me through things

-i watch national geographic;
-i like to read
-i like philosophy & psychology;

a lot
-i like to be alone a lot, but i'm not lonely

-i'm scared of losing people
-nature completely amazes & captures me
-i get upset about the smallest things that hurt me;

and i wish i didn't.

-sometimes i think i care too much

-i am shy;

although i can be very loud
-i'm way to indecisive to have a favorite color;

the colors i love are rare ones.

-i really don't know who i am;

but i know what i want out of life.

-ask me to help you and i will be right there.

-i'm changing a lot lately;

and i love it.

because i like myself, but i feel it's natural change;

that i can get used to.

simplicity captures me.

I love the scenery of a dark night with bright lights. I love the sound of a piano, playing a song that reminds me of a summer night. Laying restlessly, upon a lake. Sounds so cliche`, huh?
No. Not for me.
Everything I do, it never seems just right. This artificial world, watches us endlessly. And still, we continue to breathe, and feel the sensations of something real. Life is more than a struggle. There's something more, I just know it.
You know that feeling, where you KNOW 100%...that something you're feeling is right...and you can never explain it in words? Language truly fails in some cases.

I love the ocean. I love rain. I love simple smells. I love warm and cold on my tongue. I love the sun on my skin. I love the feeling of leaves simple structures.
I love how I can feel God's presence sometimes.

Time will never be what my clock says. It goes way too fast when all you want is a moment to treasure. And way to slow when you're waiting so desperately.

I got a book today, it's called "The Lovely Bones". It was made into a movie which is coming out soon. I would like to see it, but first, I want to read the book. I have another book to read, which I'm halfway done with. I don't understand how someone couldn't get lost in a book. It's so charming; its simplicity captures me. All of the simple things in life capture me, and hold a place in my heart.

Let's get lost.

Sometimes things are far too confusing. Although, captivating.