infinite.

i like the word "infinite" so much because i like its meaning. its a feeling you get. and its a good one. i like that they use the word so amazingly in a beautiful book (that i happen to want). here's a couple more:

it's really late. i can't sleep, though i'm so tired that i can barely keep my eyes open. my mind wanders endlessly...
i need to lay some thoughts to rest.
i kind of have this new mindset. whenever I'm feeling down i tell myself "doo da doo. life's good."
sounds funny. it keeps your spirits up. i have a hard time doing that sometimes, but it's something i believe in doing. a positive outlook is the key to happiness. along with other things. but this is essential.

i've always wanted to have one of those old vintage bikes. the cool pastel colors. i don't know why. i miss riding my bike. i used to all the time. now, it's way too cold and snowy. but i miss that. and i'd feel way cooler having one of those vintage bikes:)

someone i care about is disappointing me. i feel as though we are going opposite ways. and like they are not putting forth the effort that i am. i'm not trying anymore. i can't do it. i know that out of every relationship i will have, there will always be people who disappoint me. that sounds so pessimistic, but it's true. everyone does let you down eventually. well, most. i'm still searching for somebody who won't.

my point exactly ^



i'm trying to be the kind of person who listens more than i speak.





2010 is going to be different for me, i can assure you.

ready for some randomness?
i love old people. i don't know why. i like the thought of a whole life story that they have. and i have so much curiousity about how much they have had to have gone through throughout their years. interesting, huh?

i am different:

-i don't change myself for anyone

-if i love you i will care about you with everything in me

-i go by inspiration and creativity

-god is my world and has gotten me so far

-i want to travel, live a simplistic life

-i listen to something other than rap

-i'm myself at all times

-i read

-i actually care about peoples feelings and don't fool around with emotions

-drama and gossip stops at me, i don't play the games

GOODNIGHT! LOVELOVELOVE.

i miss summer. a lot.