i'm a wonder,

i know typically i put a picture first, then writing. but first, i want to say...this post is extrememly important to me. i hope you can understand.

don't forget to dream big dreams, so take a chance and sing loud, to laugh at all the silly stuff, and tuck away some memories.

sometimes the people around us can't see who we really are. why is that? even though they can’t see and refuse to see all of the good things you do and have to offer…doesn’t mean they don’t happen or exist.

i think we should all be happy. there is no excuse in the world to be miserable. if we aren’t enjoying every breath and step we take, then we are doing something terribly wrong. we don't have to deal with criticisms. we are all worth more than that. sometimes we get comfortable with the way things are going, so we feel content. but we don't truly know happiness. we can all do better. we don't have to keep climbing and not reach the top of a mountain. it doesn't have to be like that.

i'm just saying...in some way I really do hope something i say can affect someone in the slightest way. i blog for a few reasons, and i'd like you to know those, seeing as you're reading it now:

1.) I feel the constant (or almost constant) need to write. It helps satisfy that craving.

2.) I feel more expressive as I write, and sometimes I even re-read old posts i've written to help me through things. (weird? maybe a little.)

3.) like i said, i really want at least one person to read something i write and say 'hey, this makes sense, and this really helped me and inspired me'. the truth: i don't know if i'm capable of writing something that powerful, but i'm still trying. and that's my prayer about this.

greatness can be found in the strangest places. i see it all the time, and i wish i could see it more. because honestly, it exists everywhere we look. the small smiles and hopes people hold. i'm amazed. it shows me how much i really have to learn, and how much better of  a person i'm capable of being. i feel i need to hold on to the greatness i know the world has, even though i sometimes don't see it.

i am:

-someone who isn't willing to see anyone i love break down

-a girl who has been through more than ANYONE will know but i have gratitude

-a person with fears, but also with strengths i'm determined to let show

if i'm being completely honest here, i'm crying right now. and i'm not sure why. it's not sadness and it's not joy, it's infinite.

every so often, i find myself staring at a face that doesn't exist.

i wonder when i'll be able to stare into the eyes of time.

and go back to where we were.

the earth is unbalanced without you

somehow the gravity changed that day

or maybe my head was spinning

this is beyond what i can comprehend

dear reader, please know god is out there looking at you, hoping for the world for you. he needs you to make that happen. follow his path he's made for you.

love.love.love.