Struggles aren't forever. I wish I could convince myself this.

Some more rain today, which is making all the struggles seem all the more real and illiterate.

Some reasoning: God tests your faith in all the ways he can.
Question: Is he trying to make you feel pain?
Answer: No. Quite the opposite, actually.

I guess I've been going through a lot lately. Will I make it through? Absolutely. Will it be a bit difficult? Of course.
I'm so tired of having to deal with hatred and people who try to hurt me and the people I love. Sometimes I wish I knew why I was in certain situations.
I say to people all the time, eliminate all the negative people from your life.
Sometimes, I'm sorry to say, I'm too helpless to be able to do this.

I frequently forget that I'm still a child and shouldn't have to deal with everything at once. I sometimes don't remember that I can't fix a lot of things on my own. I need some tools, and a carpenter from time to time to help me. Jesus, are your carpentry skills still okay?

Please. Don't. Let anyone tell you you aren't beautiful. Truth be told: you are. Inside & out.
Please. Remember. God made you just how you are.
It may seem that the ocean waves are taking you under, and you may feel it's hard to breathe. Don't worry. God won't let you drown. Sometimes you have to feel pain to truly understand what joy is. I believe that so much. Whole-heartedly.

Ignorant people will eventually be destroyed. Not in some weird war way. Not literally. You understand what I mean, right? :)

I want things to stop hurting, and for it all to go away. Everything was going SO well, and now... it feels like the wall I worked on so hard is now falling down.

It was nice last night to just cry and not hold back...for someone to tell me what I DIDN'T want to hear and to tell me it would all be okay. And that they would be here for me no matter what.

Why does something amazing happen after every bad situation?
I'll let you figure that out ;)

leaves falling.

We all have different perspectives. Obviously. But seriously, we have to remember this. It's something that's so cliche but so easy to forget.
Also, why is it so easy to remember the bad things, yet so hard to remember the good? It's like something imprinted in our minds.

I've found answers to many problems I've been contemplating about lately. I can't believe it's all starting to make sense again, and slowly fall back into place. You know, like when the wind picks a leaf off their tree, causing it to slowly spiral down and then finally hit the ground?

It's like life.

Sometimes problems pick you up from your comfort zone, and send you on a whirlwind. But eventually, you will hit the ground, and know exactly why things happen.

That's a good analogy.

I like metaphors for life. Sometimes, ironically, they make so much more sense.

I love the fact that I have choices. If you haven't read my "choices" post, that probably doesn't make much sense. PLEASE read it! It's very important to me.

Have you noticed I now have a search bar? On the right hand side, close to the top. You can search any words that may be in my blog somewhere, or subjects I've written about. If you don't use it, fine. I don't really have a need for it. It's just a cool little gliche I thought I'd add. Ha.

Let's have a deep conversation. :)

god knows.

"Well if you ever need to get a hold of me for anything, if you are ever having a bad day either you can call me or you can message me."

Somehow this made me cry, and it's just what I needed to hear today.

the world is yours.

These broken walls fall down tonight,
For all the times we put up a fight.
These times are disappearing,
To a place of healing.
Everything we've ever stood for,
Drifts away like rubbish on the shore.
The love that vanished,
That lifts the fog from the mist.
The love that would slowly wane,
Possibly even take out pain.
But in the end,
it's no different than the flames,
I guess you could say,
Love is always the same.

So we meet again, dear reader.

If you know me well enough, know that I don't LOVE when people close to me hurt me. I HATE it. Don't confuse me with someone who will forget the pain you've caused me.

Right now, I CAN'T say I'm someone who can ignore your scrutiny. If you were someone I didn't love I would ignore it. Since you're so close to me, and you could do such things...this makes me so unbelievably ill.

I am trying to get through the fact that everyone eventually hurts you. I just wish some didn't do it intentionally. I feel this heavy weight on my chest that only time can heal. I'm asking you to pray about this entry, about me, and figuring things out involving this. And also, that these people I care about stop trying to hurt me.

If you did, thank you, it proves more than I'll ever be able to say.

I need to think. To evaluate some things.

lovelovelove.

the world is yours.

Choices

Hey, read my posts below...they're new! :)

I really feel like I have to say this:

You can have a wonderful life IF YOU CHOOSE TO. You can choose blessings or you can choose curses. By having a good perspective (through God) even through the worst situations will be turned into GOOD!
Today choose to be happy. Choose to be blessed. Choose not to have drama. Choose to be pain-free.

And I belive you will.

There isn't a tomorrow.

"When you forget who you are, you don't remember what's important."
-Corbin


Hello :)

I took a quiz, and my result said "you're a true dreamer at heart."
That's true.

Time is going by so much faster than I ever imagined, yet every moment seems to drag on. I'm wondering when things are going to get better. It's like a rollercoaster. I'm wondering why I kept this all bottled up inside of me... I believe in forever, so I'm holding on with both hands but sometimes my fingers start to slip. I need one person to grab my hand.

There isn't a tomorrow.
Remember that for me, and please, remind me every so often.

"You're never going to be alone,
from this moment on."
-Nickelback

I saw the book I've been wanting at target. "The Last Song" by, you guessed it, Nicholas Sparks. <3

Sometimes I wonder why God has put me in certain situations, but I know this all is happening for a reason. I really do love my life. I have struggles just like you though. Don't forget that.
Never say you miss being happy. Say, I used to be more happy than I am now, so how can I get more happy?
I've learned that.

I had one of those days where people's opinions mean nothing. Okay so I guess I'm usually like that. But today, I just felt as if nothing anyone could say would hurt me. It's wonderful.

People who hurt others on purpose are overrated. Don't be that person. Don't be the victim.

CONTROL YOUR DESTINY.

Live faster, live stronger.

I see myself changing before my eyes. I guess you probably won't see the changes I've made recently. It's not visible change. I can't tell if it's for the better or for the worse. I guess only time will tell.

Live faster, live stronger.
I love to live. I love to breathe, to laugh. I can't imagine my life without the people I've come to know.
I've been through things that I've never mentioned to anyone, and I always seem to get through. This happens with God and my family and select friends. If you have God in your life and have faith he'll help you get through anything, YOU WILL! I'm living proof :)
I look up to people who smile through pain.
I don't have any huge problems in my life, but I always try to smile along the way, whenever there's bumps along my way (there always will be).

Advice: avoid disaster at all costs.

bring out the best in yourself.

happy autumn.



I want to tell you, you're beautiful just how you are. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Hello my love.

I'm sitting here listening to some music and the rain hitting the roof. The music is quiet enough for me to hear each raindrop hit the window.

Hmm...

Someday I think I'll make a good person. Conceited? I think not.

I think I'm a good person now, but I'm still on the journey towards getting to my destination. I make mistakes daily, as do you.

I'm satisfied with myself, yet I still strive to be someone better. You can always do better. Just as long as you can accept who you are; that's what counts.

I've been waiting to get a letter in the mail. An "old" friend. When I say old friend, I think of someone you know from 20 years ago. I know her from about 5 or so years ago, and we live so far apart. We used to write so much, and we just started again. I love getting letters. It means someone's thinking about you :)

She's such a good friend. I'm so thankful for her.

Now on the topic of friends, I am also thankful for my best friend. She accepts everything I do and say without judging me.


Life's about choosing friends who bring out the best in you.


I CHALLENGE you to do as many of these things you can today:

1.) Laugh as hard as you can about the smallest thing that makes you smile.

2.) Take 3 deep breaths as you think about just nothing.

3.) Call an old friend.

4.) Tell them you love them ^

5.) Hug someone you haven't in a while.

6.) Say "thank you so much"

7.) Do something you've been saying you'd do.

8.) Let your friends/family have their space

9.) Cry happy tears or something you've been holding onto.

10.) Try to do the right thing even if it comes out wrong.

It's amazing how truly magnificent your life can be. It's all up to you.

You can say your health, your family, your values, your money, your location, etc., is holding you back. But no, YOU ARE.

Don't wait.

lovelovelove

-C <3>

Time to time.

I haven't wrote on here in awhile. Just like I said I wouldn't. I've been a bit busy.

Today was weird. Weird things kept happening to me, and it was just not a "normal" day.
I got home, did a little texting and homework, went to jimmy john's and then to a football game. Came home late.
Sounds normal, right?
It just felt so weird. Something in my head keeps bringing me down and I don't know why. I'm usually so different. It feels as if insecurities are coming up wherever I look. How do they know how to find me so easily?

I try so desperately to remove all negative people from my life. It's easier said then done. It's one of those things you talk about but can never seem to accomplish. I call people who do exactly what I do stupid. I'm so hypocritical sometimes. Ahhh.

I feel like my mind is swarming with thoughts that I really just can't handle at the moment. Any other day I'd be ready to face the world.
Maybe I need some time to think about everything. I promised myself I wouldn't let my life go in this direction. Everything was fine, it used to be. I have to find a way to stop this.

I'm still looking for someone who knows everything about me. Even just someone who knows me really well. See, people think they do. But I'm a deep well. There's more to me than meets the eye. And if I'm being completely honest, I'm not like everyone else. I am okay with that. Really. I am.

I need one person. One person to say something to me. What that something is...? I'm not mentioning it. Because if I do, they'll say it to me without meaning it. I'm tired of meaningless conversations and promises. I want someone to tell me the opposite of what I want to hear. Tell me the truth. And tell me it's all going to be okay. Do you exist out there?
If you do, a hug would be nice. A few words of advice, dandy.
I'm usually the one giving all the advice.
Could use some from time to time.

I really want to write a message/poem. My mind is honestly so tired right now. I can't think. So I won't. I'm going to sleep.

lovelovelove <3

To my father.

I would really appreciate if you read my post below, which I wrote today! And any others you haven't yet read? Thank you! :)

I want to dedicate a small section to my father who passed away in March of 2002. It was his birthday two days ago.
There really was no one else even close to like him. He had the best sense of humor anyone could. He was really talented with music and art. He was the best writer.
I miss mostly being with him in general and hugging him and going places with him and just learning more about him everytime I saw him.
Even though my mom and him were divorced, I know they were still each other's first love, and never did they stop loving each other.

Dad, I wish things would have been different and even though things turned out tragicly, I know somewhere you're happy.

Things learned & such.

I told you I wouldn't get lost in the crowd.
I'm hoping I will never have to break that promise.



Someone told me today, "No one will ever understand you, Corbin."
Hmm...
Maybe that's the truth. But I don't think anyone will every completely understand anyone else. Even themselves.
Maybe you won't ever even know who I am at all. That's okay. I choose to open up at full to few people. Maybe you will never get the chance to hear what I really have to say. That's okay too. I know who I am, and really, if you choose to not see through my mistakes...well, who's at fault here? Who's looking ignorant now?
Anyway, I don't blame them for telling me that. It's the complete truth. I'm a complex person. To be honest, I'll never understand you either. But I'm willing to find out more about you.


I currently want: Book, "Nights in Rodanthe" by Nicholas Sparks.
He's so amazing <3

I have learned recently... (this is going to be a reaccuring section on every one of my blogs.)
Sometimes the people who are closest to you feel the worst about you. Sometimes the people you think you know, know the least about you.
I found out who I can trust lately. Family member(s) too. Which in my opinion, is worse than finding out you can't trust your friends. Family should be there for you all the more, ya know?

Life is short. Too short sometimes, too long it seems at times. But overall, this life is perfect timing to do with everything.

I'm promising you right now I'm putting some of my photography on here soon. I will get to it. Ah, maybe if I keep saying that I'll actually believe it.
I'm so ammature. Like, most of the pictures I take are taken with my cell phone. No editing, no special lighting. I guess you just have to try to see the art in them.
Cuz I truly believe there's art in everything.

Something else I've discovered... I'm so non-judgemental. That's actually a good quality I see in myself. I will help anyone, I don't care if I don't agree with who you are. I'll still be a friend to you, offer advice even though I'm by far not an expert at any problem.

I've written a lot today. I guess there's a lot on my mind, and I have a lot to say.

I've never said this, even to myself. I avoid it at all costs. But...I'm not super strong. I can't avoid all negative feelings. Things do eventually affect me. Truth be told: I'm a strong person. I am. But I'm not a complete stone. No. Not yet.


I seemed to lose control of the bitterness you left
And now I can't even think,
Because everthing's a mess.
It all came crashing down on me,
like the wave pulling you under.
I can't even begin to see,
Past this storming thunder.

I wrote that in about 20 seconds. I'm basically being completely literal too.

I hope you all have a wonderful week. Perhaps you should wish me the same. Because this week should be, to say the least, "interesting".

lovelovelove
-C

Stuff.

I've actually posted a couple times today, and it makes me pretty happy.
Scroll down & read the one's you haven't for me! :)
I probably won't post again for a few days, so I'll make up for some lost time today. haha.

I seriously love punk and acoustic bands. It's just another thing that makes me feel alive. The bands that many people don't know about, those usually are the ones that are best.

Currently listening to: Break by Three Days Grace.

I don't like how I'm feeling right now.

<-- i edited this. I really like it. <-- and this.

I've been seeing art in almost everything lately.

Things I want to do right at this moment:
-Get my license
-Find a job
-Go skydiving
-Go for a walk (it's too dark out)
-Hear good music instead of this crap that's playing.

Goodnight <3
Lovelovelove
-C


P.S. I love you chook!!!!

Beautiful Disaster.

I've found the little things to mean the most. I've found unwanted thoughts come at the most unappropriate or desperate times.
But, I do know...love happens when you're least expecting it. It comes like a tornando picking your feet off the ground.

Everything I wanted didn't seem to come so quickly

We trampled on what's left and still we disagree

As if I tried to make my life crumble,

As if I didn't pick myself when I would stumble.

I saw you in that picture frame,

With your head bowed with shame.
Why did you do this?

How do you exist?

Everything in my head says,

really, I'm alive

But my heart doesn't feel

what you would soon contrive.

Everything is so beautiful in the world of hatred. You may see distruction and evil in what's wrong with our society. But if you look close enough, you might see the beauty in what's not.

A beautiful disaster.

And maybe that's what my life is exactly. I don't have everything figured out yet. I don't understand a lot of things.

A lot of things happen to me that I'm not neccessarily okay with. But even though it's all so disasterous, it's still beautiful just because it's my life.

I'm lost in the words I find so inevitable.

A leopard's spots.

Not everyone realizes the meaning of life. I really feel bad for them. Living their life worrying and stressing. If you take a step back and look at everything, you'll truly see... everything really is OKAY. I myself am can be like that sometimes. Everyone can.

I have an issue. Many actually. I care about every person to the fullest extent when I get to know them. I know what you're thinking. "Corbin, how could that be an issue?"
Let me tell you, it actually creates heartbreak. Not all the time. When I really love someone, I really love them. I would do anything to see them smile. And then when they hurt you, like most people end up doing, your world crashes down.
Wouldn't it be so much easier to be detached and not have any expectations for people? Then they really couldn't let you down.

I need to work on that. Although, I'm not going to stop caring for anyone. You can't change a leopard's spots. I just need to work on my fears of people hurting me and letting me down. Obviously there's a reason I feel this way. Maybe past experiences.

One thing I know...I'm NOT going to be that girl who has trust issues. I can't. And I won't.
Like I've said before...
I won't spend my life jaded.

Scroll down & read my other post from today :) Yes, I changed my layout!!


Oh, don't let me walk away from the love I've never felt.
For everything you say somehow makes my heart melt.

How I could live for the rainy days when everything just seems to go your way.

Just who we are.

I can see clearly, everything lingering from footsteps where you once stood.
Like a cave you hid in for too long. I was calling your precious name out fromon top of a mountain. Still you stood as still as the fall breeze around us.
Here I am, living undefeated. Do you expect me to pick up the rose you trampled on? It's now dirt.
Beauty surrounded my heart and filled it with hope, although...I wasn't quite sure where it was all coming from. From a distance perhaps. Or maybe it was waiting for me to discover, hopelessly wandering looking for a hand to grab it.
Or it may just be my own mind longing for the forbidden heart to care.

No one else cares to dream.
No one goes to sleep with the country stars in mind.

Of course, just when we think we've reached our breaking point, the rain begins to shower down upon us, disregarding our tender lips.
And just when we think we've conquered the world a new place, maybe majestic, maybe infinite, begins to form.

We might have to defeat an army, go through a forest,or emerge from an ocean to truly realize...

Just who we are.

I love you all.
Peace. Love. & God.

-C

Another Sunday.

It's been a long time since I've posted anything on here.
That makes me sad.

Another Sunday. I'm not a huge fan of Sunday's. Better than Monday's though.
This weekend was SO refreshing for me. I did everything I would have wanted to. Not that it was a super exciting two days. No. It was just right.

I feel for once, so ready, so accomplished. I can't believe after so long I feel a bit relaxed and prepared. Just for everything.

I've been thinking about a lot. Things that a lot of people never think about. Just about the world, about life. Things that are too deep for me to explain also. Seriously, I am just really thankful for my life. I have so many up's and down's. Sometimes it feels like there's more down's than up's. But you know what?
IT'S OKAY.
Because everything I've gone through makes me the person I am today. And I really am proud of who I've become.

My friend told me something the other day. She said, "Corbin, you're the most honest person I've ever met. You never give into peer pressure."
You know how awesome it is hearing that?
Although I wanted, "thank you so much!" to come out, I ended up saying "Well, I try." It made me happy hearing that. You know, someone actually acknowledging my strengths and something I work so hard on being.

I really do try to be an honest, true person. I try letting everyone know that I will always be there for them. Everyone needs someone like that.
I told a different friend "if you ever need anything, anytime, anywhere, don't hesitate to ask me. I'll always to a true friend to you."
You know what she said? "Thanks corbin, that means so much. It made my day."
That is just so awesome to hear.

This song below, I did not write. It's a linkin park song & it's about struggles & God & I'd love for you to read it. I love it. It's really relatable.

So much stress keeps running through my mind now
I fell into a mess that I wish that I could climb out
I guess I'll hide it so nobody will find out that way
Everyone thinks that everything is fine now
at home things are messed up with mom and dad
and at school all my friends stab me in the back
no one is real anymore
I hate the way they act
there is so many things that I wish I had
so God if you're there do you understand?
don't you care about anything that's happening?
it's not fair to put me through all this junk again
you see that I'm scared so help me if you can
so please speak loud and clear cuz I'm listening
I need to know that you're real cuz I'm struggling
you need to show that you're here cuz I'm stumbling
show me that you care and this is why I'm saying this

It goes on to talk about how he gave his life to God.

I love you all.
lovelovelove
-C

SCHOOL & SUCH

Well, yes, school was today...
Can't say it went bad, but I can't say it went wonderful either.

One thing I CAN say is that things are going to be different for me this year. (In a good way!)
I'm changing a lot of things. I'm eliminating some bad things and definitely adding some good. I'm hoping to reinvent certain things. I'm hoping to limit my time with people I don't want in my life as much, and have some new people in my life!!

People don't understand why some people are bloggers, and it's like, I don't expect you to understand when:
1. You've never tried it before
2. You don't like to write
3. You're not a "journal" kind of person.
Mostly, blogs do act as some sort of journal for people. It helps a lot, and helps me remember everything. I'm just naturally a person who writes (or in this case, types) a lot. So I love it.

Currently listening to: Whatever it is by Zach Brown Band.
Excellente` song!

I'm going to start "photoblogging" which is where I take pictures of a lot of my life, and put em up! Just have to figure out a few camera/computer gliches!

I actually have some homework. I know, first day, already homework!

Have a wonderful day!!

lovelovelove
-C

PICTURE (:

My AMAZING cousin named Kobe & I!!!

I'm seeing the resemblence!

(BTW: i seriously love the guy with the cowboy hat in the background! HA!!)

We were at a restaurant!

Goodbye Summer. See you next year.

I'm feeling like I can do anything I put my mind to right now... that's a good thing!
With schools starting in TWO DAYS I'm really nervous, but there is some excitement in there somewhere. Maybe deep, deep down there, but HEY, it's there!
Summer has come to an end...

Somewhere in this town
Is where we once found
Who we were,
Who we've came to be.
All that's left,
is what we'll never see.
For it's hidden beneath our breath
That's crying out our deaths.
Someday we'll know
The stillness that's below.


If anyone ever needs help with anything, anytime, anywhere...please let me know!!
Email me for my phone number (or just email me): peace_11c@hotmail.com

lovelovelove
-C

Thinking...

Today I bought some shoes. This school thing is exaughsting already, and school hasn't even started. Thinking about it is enough.
It's hard to believe I'm in 11th grade. I'm actually just relieved.
I know so much is ahead of me, and that's really refreshing :)

You know, I've been thinking about life and when I think about my future life...here's what I think about:


Traveling and seeing beautiful places.
Being with my family.
Having (many) children.
Doing things that are adventurous & really make life worth living.
Being just generally happy.

Are those high hopes? Are they reachable? I don't know. I'll have to live my life and see. Those aren't even close to all of my aspirations, but those are the things that I've been thinking about.

I'm in the weirdest mood ever. I feel like doing absolutely nothing. That's unusual for me.
I feel a bit stressed, also. I don't feel like talking to anyone, which is also unusual for me. So I won't. I'll do nothing, I won't talk to anyone. I just need to go to sleep early, wake up, and start over.

I wish I lived near a lake. I would be sitting on a doc & just thinking.

Please don't judge me.

I guess it's the fact that I can't change certain things that pries into my mind.
I guess it's just that people see me differently than who I really am.

If you would take the time to know me, you'd know that I will become friends with anyone who needs a friend. I'll pray for the stranger that shoves me on purpose. I'll give the shoes I have to you if you don't have much.

So who is anyone to judge? I try not to judge people...& yet, still...people are wrapped up in their silly little lives, stressing about nothing and MY life.

I plan on becoming a better person as I get older, but I DO NOT plan on changing who I am for the acceptance of others. Especially ones who think they know the world, when they are so close-minded that they can't see what's worth living for.

just to fly away.

Unanswered Prayers

There's a song that I love.

It says:
remember when you're taking to the man upstairs
just because he doesn't answer, doesn't mean he doesn't care
Some of God's answered prayers are unanswered prayers
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.

Isn't that so true?

Yes, I believe.

The rain keeps hitting my window
Oh, so slow
It reminds me of the times
You stared at me endlessly into my eyes
If you take my hand
If you help me stand
You'll help me get out of this
And show me you do exist

God.

God is miraculous, & premeditated.
Question: If God is for me, how can anyone be against me?
Answer: they can't.

I fear nothing. I know even though I may be troubled sometimes, God is still leading me down my path.
And isn't that awesome?
Answer: YES.

CONFESSION: Sometimes I wonder how I'm going to get up when I fall. Sometimes I see people around me constantly falling. But then I remember...they don't have God like I do. Okay, they have Him, but they don't know Him like I do.
THE TRUTH: I'm not worrying anymore.

My life is all planned out for me. I'm not going to perplex over it. And that excites me. :)

Accident?

I've been having the weirdest feelings ever. Maybe they're just in my head, or maybe I should follow my gut.
A few weeks ago, I saw a truck pass me while in the car. It was dark green. We were on the express way, so we were by him for a little while. I started becoming overwhelmed with feelings. I saw that truck getting into an accident, and that man dying. Not literally. But in my mind. I was frozen with emotions as I looked at it, and tears filled my eyes, without actually running down my face. I seriously felt like I was feeling all the emotions he would be feeling when the tragedy would happen.

I feel like such a freak. Who knows if it actually happened or will? I really, really hope not.
I guess it's not the first time for me...

I just started thinking about it again.

I don't know why, I don't know how, I don't know if it's even true.



Why is nothing ever good enough
For the things that are around us?
I keep finding myself stumbling
I don’t know what’s wrong, but I know it’s something

THE NOTEBOOK!

this movie is so amazing. i love nicholas sparks' books. i would absolutely love to collect them. i love his writing style, i look up to him so much.


-i'm thinking about actually getting to sleep before 2 AM tonight...school is in less than a week. One part of me is excited. One part is hesitant, one part nervous.

-goodnight. lovelovelove. <3

Poem- This is where we have to be

For a while, we were gone like the wind picked us up and carried us so gently
Sitting us down with pride, we watched our world fall, and we observed all we could see
Everything went so fast, just like the merry-go-round we spun on years ago
Soon the season would change like we did, and the wind will blow
As we climb this ladder of life,
whispering along the way,
We forget our pasts,
and soon we go astray
Lost in this moment seems a bit too exaggerated
But I can't be without you without being jaded
For a while, we were gone like the wind picked us up and carried us so gently
For a while, this is where we have to be.

lost in words

I find it neccessary to write. It's something I can't control. I get lost in words.


i guess i will never understand the cruelty of the world.





but the time taken up is never enough, and he's all that I need to fall into.

Runaway

I heard a song called "a runaway". He's talking about him wanting to be a runaway for a day, just to do things for himself and to not worry about anything.
Maybe that's what I need. Without being a runaway. Maybe a little less extreme, like taking a walk.
By the way, that early morning jog I was talking about...yeah, didn't happen.

I don't want to spend my life jaded. And I won't.

(:

i love this.


by the way, make sure you scroll down, i really want you to read a "story" i wrote called fall memories.

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This picture was by my house. I took it from my phone, so it looks a bit blurry.






This is where we fall apart
All this time you broke my heart
I'm lost in this moment
That seemed so important
Like that lost, stolen boy
Whose world was destroyed
Like a crack in the window leading to someone
It's that knot becoming undone
I see that face of an angel in the mirror
And as the fog lifts, you become clearer

Perceptions

The stars are above us
They're one thing I can trust
Just as you, said you'd come running
Here I am, waiting for something.

I just wrote that in about...oh, 15 seconds. How weird I am. It still amazes me.

Today I've heard more arguing than a heart should hold, but hey, I'm strong. I'm realizing how much I've actually grown lately. Maybe more than I know?

One thing is, I want to go for a run, I want to forget about everything. Maybe I should wake up early tomorrow and go for a jog. I doubt that will actually happen.

Lately I've been loving acoustic music and some country. I don't know. It relaxes me.

I LOVE inspiration. And I think what gives me it the most is photography. It just shows the beauty in life. And I love that.




let me love the way i want to.




don't turn away, for your eyes will meet something else.



how can i get so lost in pictures? it's like i'm living this life that i so badly would love.



everyone has their own perception of beauty. mine would be being in this picture right now.




"would you rather live in the city or country?" well i love both. i want to see a lot of both. but i would choose country any day.

Poem-a train in the rain

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Take the time everyday
To remember everything I say
Before you go away
Watch my heart decay.
You walked over the railroad tracks
And as you fell over the cracks
I saw myself start to cry,
You were falling and I didn't know why
That loud, echo of the train
Was just as deadly in the rain
And still, I stood in the pouring storm
Waching it come closer and slowly,
you would transform.

Poem-I wonder who I really am

That summer went to fast
We knew it wouldn't last
Somehow it all crashed down
You didn't even frown
Maybe that's something I can envy
But it's someone I'll never be
That smile, those eyes
They'll never lie
I stopped right where I was the night we swam
Sometimes I wonder who I really am
Cuz you can tell me I'm so strong
But everything still feels so wrong
That fall went so slow
You said, something I know
is that you'll always be the girl
Who's not afraid of this world
That's just the way life goes
Ups and downs I suppose
You said, don't worry about them
I still wonder who I really am

Poem- your presence is lingering in the air

Your presence is lingering in the air
With your spirit lying right there
I saw in your smile,you were so bright-eyed
Everything that makes your world collide
It all crashed down from the day you turned twenty one
you noticed your life was slowly becoming undone
i can still hear that voice
I know you had no choice
Your heart was slowing down
You felt like you had drowned
Your presence is lingering in the air
From that single last glare,
we knew.
We no longer hide in what we don't know,
You know you're okay although...
We hear you call our names in dispair
Your presence is still lingering in the air

These things are what make life matter...

My own piece of the world!

All I want is to be happy. I don't expect the world. Just my own personal slice of the world. See, I don't have to have the whole pie to be satisfied. I can have one little slice and it could be the most delicious piece and fill me up perfectly!
See what I'm saying?

"Untouched"

Life is a beautiful thing I myself will never so fortunately get to realize the signifigance.
It's amazing to think about rainforests and lakes and all of the things that make everyday stresses mean nothing.
Getting lost doesn't seem like such a bad idea sometimes. We need to get lost sometimes to find our way, or to be found.
Maybe we all need to be pulled under the water and to be rescued to know we won't drown.
Perhaps we are put here for a reason. Maybe we suffer so we can later rejoice and realize how lucky we are to have the privelege to laugh.
We all need someone to lean on, someone to get lost in our eyes.
As ocean waves hit the surface, we learn who we are, but never fully understand everything about ourselves. As seasons change, so do we.
Memories come and go, but the ones that matter will remain untouched.

"A Fall Memory"

The stars cast just enough light over the trees that it shone on my face. There was a cool stillness about the forest. I was swimming through the trees, as my heart beat faster. We came to a murky, glistening pond. The fall air was thick.

I ran my fingers over a flower. I couldn't tell what kind, for the darkness felt like hiding it. All of the bugs were sleeping, hiding, or dead by now, by this time of the year. All I could see was the glowing moon on the pond and one single firefly dancing with the field of weeds.

He was almost caught up to me, and he trampled over a pile of leaves, causing them to fly different directions. Like we would be soon.

Our feet took us where they wanted us to go. It was as if I were in a story I was telling myself, looking from another point of view. My eyes rested upon the scenery staring back at me. I can still see him just as clearly as I could that night.
The sunlight wasn't as fond of us as the moon was. Our laughter was meant for the moonlight. Our voices were meant for the night that was crawling over us.