closing my eyes.

Well well well,
Here I am again.
Everything is so beautiful...

Who I really am:
I am a complex person. You will never figure me out completely. I have way too many opinions and views on things that will never really matter. I am complicated, and care about more things than what clothes look best on my figure. I am original, I don't change myself for the acceptance of others. This is me. I'm not the same as most.
I promise, I'll be the best friend you have if you let me be. I'll show you all the love in the world if you show me the smallest amount. I truly care about people I get to know. If you don't consider my feelings, I won't take it lightly. I hold people I love up to a high standard.
I can be sooo crazy, and loud, and obnoxious. It's not something I'm proud of. But it's me. Other times, I'm super shy and quiet. Most of the time, not so much.
I do try to listen more than I speak. [Doesn't always happen,...haha.]


I am finishing up my "quote wall" in my bedroom. I cut papers out and wrote different sayings and motivational quotes and hung them up. I added photography too, and it all is there to simply inspire me. Enlightenment.

My thoughts wander endlessly.

Here's a song I just wrote on the spot, and it means a lot to me. Hope you like it.

CLOSING MY EYES
Now I'm closing my eyes
And I,
I'm watching this time fly by
I think of you,
and now, I'm closing my eyes
Just watching myself cry
When I dream, I still return to you
And I,
I'm watching you cry
My heart is not the first to be broken
Your mind is not the first to go unspoken
Just before these times
I'm closing my eyes

Chorus:
You, with your hand around that trigger
I have the same fears as you
But your, your problems are so much bigger
You, with your hands covered in lies
Still, we never got to say our goodbyes
You, with your demons fighting against you
I wish it wasn't this way because,
You'll always be the person I never knew

Right now I'm closing my eyes
And I,
I'm watching your life fly by
Yeah, she's closing her eyes
You'll always be, always be,
someone in a disguise.
These dreams, they still return to you
And I,
I'm watching you die.
My heart is not the first to be broken
Your mind is not the first to go unspoken
I'm still not alive,
so I'm closing my eyes

Chorus

I don't know my reality,
Without you, I don't know who to be.
These moments, will never be sensationalized.
so I'm closing my eyes.