Who says I can't be free?

I'm listening to "who says" by John Mayer on repeat...there's something about it that relaxes me.
This is a part of it:
"Who says I can’t get stoned?
Turn off the lights and the telephone
Me and my house alone
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Who says I can’t be free?
From all of the things that I used to be
Re-write my history
Who says I can’t be free?
It’s been a long night in New York City
It’s been a long night in Baton Rouge
I don’t remember you looking any better
But then again I don’t remember you."

This kind of inspires me. Who says I can't wake up tomorrow and be a completely different person? Re-write this story called life. Do everything I want to. Be who I want to be.

I'm not the type of person who likes to alone often. I wish right now that I had someone to keep me company. Someone my age at least. But you know, maybe it's okay. Maybe I can take some time to think about things...

And again, I replay this song.

I am feeling isolated. Sometimes it's like, what am I doing wrong in life?
You know...?



I love people in general, but sometimes I can't stand being around the people I'm surrounded by. Maybe it's me, I don't know. I try seeing good in everyone, but sometimes it's so so deep down that it takes a special person to be able to see. I want to be that person, I do.

I'm not a serious person most of the time. I mean, I can be but I am usually laughing and joking. It just makes life better to me. It makes me smile :)

I don't know what I want. It's that simple.